It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Monday, November 02, 2009 Enough of everything. I just want to finish this semester and then its goodbye responsibilities, goodbye everyone.

Wednesday, September 02, 2009 It seems like its taking forever for me to improve. I don't find myself rowing as fast as I'd like to be right now. It's been like what? 4 weeks coming to 5 and I'm still a slug. What in the world is happening to me? I'm so scared that I'll never get back my top form. I'm scared that I'll just lose out like what happened at NCC. I'm afraid of being the biggest loser. Maybe that's what keeping me awake at night...

Frustrated frustrated frustrated. Stupid snail, move faster.

28 November... 3 months from now. I hope I wont be that snail by then. I hope.

Sunday, August 23, 2009 Weekend trip was awesomeeeee. :D A much needed getaway. 2 days of perfect sand, water and diving...

Cause I'd Get A thousand Hugs
From Ten-thousand Lightning Bugs
As They Try To Teach me How To Dance
A Fox Trot Above my Head
A Sock Hop Beneath My Bed
A Disco Ball is Just Hanging By a Thread

:))

Thursday, August 20, 2009 It gets frustrating and upsetting at times when I feel as if people dont acknowledge what I've done for them. 2 and a 1/2 years and counting, we're the strength of 20 people from 3. One should know that I try my best to make decisions that is best for the team and not myself. Wake up and smell the roses, I can't please everyone. I cant please all 20 of you plus coach and our SDO and at the same time ensure that everything is running smoothly. So all I can say is that I am doing my best, I am not sorry for what I said during the team talks and if you're not happy with it, tell it to me in my face and not online.

Sunday, July 26, 2009 4 more days of attachment and I'll be free from this damnation forever. Well, it really isnt that bad as I put it but still...20 weeks isnt a short period for a student to be totally stuck at work and not school.

Just 2 weeks ago during our classroom session made me realise how much I miss school. The familiar hallways, the everyday happenings at Business school entrance with blasting music, waiting at the mushroom and just about everything. Especially my friends. In 7 months time we'll be graduates and the start of working life looms upon some of us, guys being the exception. Boy am I ever looking forward to Senior year with everyone. With us already having hardly enough time to meet up but still manage to do so *thanks to max and his trusty car*, who knows what we'll do when school semester starts? Especially the gaming classes. Chips and poker cards and Aloysius Chery qq.

The past few weeks here at the airport has only made me more lethergic and totally flat. Its as if Im out of gas, theres nothing to look forward to, everydays a routine. I'm getting sick and tired of the gossips and hatred running thru the centres but what can i do?

Thank God theres only 4 more days till the end...anyone wants to book me after that? I'm 10 weeks free :)))

Thursday, July 23, 2009 I know. I just know. Quit asking me why I know so much. :) Maybe that's what I'm on earth for. To know and to solve. Is that your job for me God?

Thursday, July 09, 2009 4 more weeks. 2 more essays. 1 more day till Orlando interns return! :)))

Pleseant start in the morning, being able to have a quick meet up with some of the TPBC members who were sending off the mission team. Gotta see Roger, Aileen and Yun!!! Awesome start I should say...not just pleseant.

I'm so weak compared to my previous state I wonder if I can do well for the November Invites. Sometimes i just start to think twice about competing again, seeing how useless I am right now. Not being part of the team, not here, not there. I dont even know half of the freshies' names. Sorry dudes...

Welllll, I gotta crash. Opening shift once again. for the next 4 days.

In the end, I think we're coming together again...

Sunday, July 05, 2009 I think i've far too much on my hands right now. I just want to freaking let go of every single responsibility and run away to bintan for a week and not worry.

I'm so out of touch with the team I have no idea whats happening and I bet I'm a hot topic for gossip and on the most hate list, my reports is due in 2 weeks time and I've yet to start, I've not been training for a week making me even worse in terms of my mood and now...

it went from counting angpows for a wedding to counting condolence money.

just stop calling me over a stupid piece of cloth, stop asking me to make such simple decisions, stop expecting me to create magic.

Saturday, July 04, 2009 Goodbye grandpa, my heart and tears goes out to you.

Love,
Sam

Tuesday, June 23, 2009