It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Wednesday, August 31, 2005 hmmm... wads happening to me? i myself dunno can... arghhh why is it that whenever i see you i get... i dunno... attracted? arghhh it's sooo not suppose to be happening... ppffttt... cannot cannot... and whoever is reading this DO NOT JUMP INTO CONCLUSIONS. i dunno dunno why... why is this happening? why is it that i'm soo over friendly towards to you? maybe its cause i wanna get into your circle but am unable to... maybe its beacuse i admire you... maybe... arghhh nonono...

Wednesday, August 31, 2005 oh man oh man oh man... we did WINDSURFING today!!! soooo cool... was raining so could not go sailing then after rain stopped... coach say "lets go try windsurfing!" wahhh couldnt believe my ears ... super high now... sigh* cloud 9... use a lot of muscle hahaah... but nvm... it rocks....

played 1 hr plus of basketball... that rocked too... whee... today totally was my thing... all sports no lessons... flying in cloud 9...

Tuesday, August 30, 2005 welll... once again had a slacky day today... the whole school was filled with different colours as most of us were dressed in out own clothes for the various presentations. pretty cool huh? have SAILING tomorrow yay!!! second last lesson... next week is the last one.. boohoo... pray for lots of sun and wind so that we can sail far far out and get stranded at sea hahaha... okay i know thats ridiculas. watched shooting stars.. nice show although i dun and will never like Sly and his hair. but the girl was sooo pretty, as in to me... yeah... anyways...

hmmm... yay!i'll be able to play for worship next week with the rest of the band*cheers* i told my dad that i didnt want to go to phuket... that i wanted to stay for celebration sunday... can you imagine that?! me giving up 3 whole days of sun, sea and life... oh well guess that u cant have everything good in yr life. u have to sacrifice one good thing for another. depends which is the one that you truly love. life is like that... never going your way at anytime. even if u think that u are doing fine... you cant get what u want. ok i sound rather selfish and greedy.anyways... hope that this band thing will continue to grow, even out of church. can go jamming from time to time. book a studio and anyhow play. yeah... but i know its rather expensive.

haha was talking and am now talking to jas... she told be that a certain EYE CANDY has total horrible disgusting fashion sense... and from wad she told me, i totally agree that this EYE CANDY'S sense is totally...*undescribe-able*haha... i mean who goes around walking and parading on the streets in a brown uni and YELLOW shoes lol... ok... i shall be nice and stop here for this section. *giggles*

ok tmr i have 3 hrs to slack before going for sailing. hmmm jas is rather desperate to get a gift for coach but we hve no idea what to get him. and... and... i dunno wad else to say... so i'm crapping... and crapping and crapping until i can find something else to type... crapping.. crapping...OH! FOUND SOMETHING TO SAY!

ok there's this certain non eye candy that is freaking me out and i dunno wad to do about it... ppffttt... this person whom will remain anoynymous is totally and i mean TOTALLY freaking me out.this particular person has a rather lousy definition of what cool is, stating to me that if i were to ride on a bike to school i'll be the coolest girl... i went [in my head]"what in the world is this person thinking?is he/she crazy or still living in he/she own world... hiaz... that person is left in the 20th century... poor thing... haha... yeah soooo... anyway dear nic mao refuses to help me think of a way to avoid this he/she person... i'm left stranded on my own. ppffttt... and i dunno wad to do... thank God that i'm not meeting their sch anytime soon... at most its only next year... whew*ok... yawn tired*

Monday, August 29, 2005 had sort of slacky day today... well can consider it slcaky i guess. went to meet esther and group at 10 15 at macs then went to buy materials for the model. after that went to school for the sake of going oh and we played basketball!! but dunno why today not good... rusty lei... hiaz everytime shoot nv go in ppffttt only 1 0r 2... did layup for one of them haha... then went to serangoon market to eat... hahaha then go to vanessa's house. the houses over there are sooo nice... huge houses... but i want a house that has a swimming pool. hehe... anyway tmr have presentation... dunno what to wear. slacky week for the exception that my results are out and by the look that my mom gave me when i showed her the results its spells T-R-O-U-B-L-E... uh oh... i'm dead, say byebye to samsee...BYE! ok...out of point but... yeah... this term my results are either REALLY good and when i mean good its good to me... in the A band lah... or REALLY bad D band... bah ... need to write out my speech for tmr... bye bye samsee... samsee no more...

Sunday, August 28, 2005 hmmm had a slack day today. hinted to mother that my results sucked. had bs at 12 45 went to COCO for ice milo with a whole bunch of girls from church... haha we rock. anyways then went for church until 5 30. came home went to heartland for dinner. bought a skirt... shhh cannot tell my dad... was not suppose to buy... so he dunno... between u and me k? hahaha... bascially its a normal day for me...

Saturday, August 27, 2005 arghhhh.... i really really really want to play for worship... nv have been that enthu bout it... hmmm thats good right??? anyways... i shall continue my whining... i wanna play i wanna play i wanna play for worship!!! *wails* why cant i play? why must James play? just let him sing lah... hiaz... why he so gung ho wanna go play and be worship leader at the same time... take my role of guitarist...arghhhhhh..... ppffttt... I WANNA PLAY IN THE BAND...must vent my pissyness... even if there is no such word... let me play... and they may be doing an evan concert during september hols... and i wun be in Singapore*wails again* hope they dun do it... hehe... then can include me... if not where they going to find guitarist? arghh.... must go jamming together one of this days kk? go book studio... hahaha...

today learned new skill for electric guitar... oh man... so nice can... ahhh love it...

Friday, August 26, 2005 oh my... thanks God thank God... we got 3rd placing for the mayors debate series... AHHH!!! and i got the honour of bringing the Challenge Trophy home...*grins* soo happy this thing has brought up my confidence level by a few notches hahaha *woots* and theres other good news...

a possibilty that we'll go on an overseas trip with others... whom i shall not name for the time being) for debate!!! ahhh over the moon... RI won the debate finals, SCGS'S second speaker got best speaker...

rather busy now... blog tmr

Friday, August 26, 2005 ppffttt... jacob just told me that i dont have to come for jamming session tmr... said that james wanted to play the guitar for worship so i need'nt come... surprisingly, i'm rather disappointed bout the fact that i cant play for this weeks worship... it fun can... at the same time improve my skills... oh well... and the sad thing is that i wun be able to play for the next worship session as well as i wun be in singapore... and this weeks songs are sooo nice can...*wails* why is everything not going my way? *sigh* anyway i guess i'll stick to my own quiet life... hope that we can continue to play even after the split from YA after PDL. yupp yupp... super fun to play with those guys hahaha.

oh and did i tell you that i'm FINALLY learning my electric guitar? haha... wad did ya expect. i'm a cool girl. *smirks* lol... hope that i'll be good enough to get a really really good electric guitar next time... bad thing is that i HATE SCALES and hate indeed... pffttt... but my teacher is always making me do it... threatening me that if i dun memorise my scales i'll go nowhere else... ppffttt... STUPID SCALES... oh well... suppose that i have to practice it now since that i haven even touch my guitars for 4 days? love the feel... then my hands will get all stretched and lengthened hahaha... guitar rox can...

going for the debate finals later. its RI AGAINST SCGS... will be a pretty interesting debate. oh and looking forward to seeing the NYJC AND AJC debate as well... meeting nic to settle some problems... (i hope) if she bothers to remember...

was on the com last night... ok this sounds pretty lame but was talking to some people and crying non-stop can... yeah i guess you can say i'm too extreme... its the first time that i've cried so hard over a debate experience. maybe i can understand why Addeline cried when we were out of the quarters of JG's. It's that feeling of disappointment. after hours on the computer, researching, finding examples, writing oout the facts, compiling out yr team mates cases, thinking of rebuttals, stressing over how we may not be able to reach the time limit and *poof* you lost. its like... i dunno... you just feel really sucky. you may think that i'm overboard and taking it too seriously. but i suppose thats what debate is all about. you put yr heart and soul into it but you just cant make it. its different from sports its different from other competitions. the debate world is just another planet. its like debaters are on mars. losing a debate to me is a very discouraging thing...

i know that i keep on harping bout how we lost... but really... i feel extremely guilty about it... i was my fault... i was too selfish...oh well... i have to let it go... slowly... dunno how i would be able to look at her later and congratulate her... i may be able too... i know i can... but deep inside i'll be feeling a sense of defeat and uselessness... that i'm not on par with her... that she... who did not have an extra year of training could win me... i know i sound selfish... u can think whatever you want... i'm just writing out what i feel... what i really feel inside of me. no amount of encouragment can help me... she herself oblivious to the facts that i'm having a silent war with her, that mentally, i'm competing against her. but i know i CANNOT n SHOULD NOT do that because it will cost us the whole team.

this cca is like that. if u want to do it your way... too bad... yr team loses even if u can deliever the best speech u have ever made. team work is the key factor to victory.

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Thursday, August 25, 2005 boy oh boy... was playing basketball and trying to block an overhead pass when *crracck* there was a sound... you know the sound you here when you crack yr knuckles? yeah that disgusting sound. and so now i'm walking really weird.

arghhh sheesh... oh man... i cant believe it but i failed both my sciences!!! i am like soooo darn dead man... don't dare to tell my parents. that will be the end of me. have not failed before can... pfftt... thank God its only CA3... darn it... just checked and i failed my chinese as well... thats 3/8 subjects that i failed can... my worst in my entire life... arghhh how... i am sooo going to die when they find out. what kind of pure student am i man... a lousy one...arghhhh dunno what to do now...

not looking forward to cyberweek... cant find any crappy info... pfft...to pissed to blog anymore...

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005 didnt go sailing today... didnt wanna risk another over exhaustion episode. only 5 of them went today... rather fun i suppose... so little of them went... maybe they could sail 1 man boat...

oh and just wanna say... thanks guys... those that helped me look on the bright side of this thingy...really encouraged me... yeah i suppose i can focus on the JG competition next year and put my energy into it and not be a sore loser...ppffttt... i suppose i'm stuck as 3rd? oh well...its for the best i suppose...and now adeline and i are talking bout getting seniors to come back and train us... hmmm hope its possible...

tmr have extra 1 1/2 hrs of a mths... killer... miss lau... anyways... didnt do very well for this term... specially for physics... and i m praying reaallll hard that i pass my a math... dunno y mental block today n even though plotting the graph was super easy... i didnt know how to do it?! like... what the...

Tuesday, August 23, 2005 heard the news. happy for you. extremely extremely disappointed with myself. felt like crying. wanted to let the tears fall. but it would seem stupid to cry in the middle of silent reading. kept it inside me. went home and cried myself to sleep. was really very disappointed with myself. i am to blame for it. cant blame anyone else. they gave me the choice. i was stubborn. i thot i was better at that position. but it didnt help me. i was foolish. idiotic. a selfish idiot. for those that know what i'm referring to... i know i sound rather egoistic. but pls forgive me for once. i cant help it. i had expected it for myself. i suppose i'm not up to standard i guess. what other reason can there be. i fail as a debator. i'm a lousy example of what a debator really is. dont follow me. i'm not good enough to be yr senior in the first place. i tried my hardest but my best will nv enable you guys to reach yr full potential. you guys need a coach. i tried my best but my best will never satisfy your hunger for wanting to learn more. i dont even know if i want to join the upcoming debate competition. maybe i'm not good enough for it. i really dunno... this competition has really pulled me down. so down, i'm trapped inside it.

Monday, August 22, 2005 have been having sorta of cramps for 2 days already... oh welll... have to bear with it...have worship practice this coming saturday... i mean its like 1 day before the real thing? huh? sooo little time to practice? ok... i wun complain... hiaz... i was incharge of entering the first entry for our geog gis blog... haven even do it yet... i mean... who in the world will bother to do it when there is so much other things to do??? arghhh... better get it over and done with... got back geog test today... did OK... OK as in average...dun feel like blogging anymore... have lot of things to do...

Friday, August 19, 2005 we lost... simple as that... but i dun feel disappointed or upset... cause i know that we did our best... we did whatever we could to the best of our ability... even though i was quite pissed with myself at not bringing up the rebuttals that we had thought of during our brainstorming events. anyway, we are one of the top four out of the total 14 schs so thats not bad i suppose... it Raffels and SCGS up against each other next hahaha... i think it would be rather interesting. dun really wanna join the ACJC debates [methodist cup] cuase exams are coming... but... i suppose since we dun have a coach, we have to use the competition to get suggestions on how to improve... what i've learn as 3rd... even though i have good rebuttals... but it comes up too late as i refuse to share with my speakers for the fear of not having enough time to rebutt... hiaz... its all in the learning process i suppose...

finally finished my LITERATURE test... woke up at 5 just to study for 1 hr... but i dun think i'll do that well for this test... hope i get at least a b3 though... the bad thiong is that its my cca teacher that is also my lit teacher and so i have extra pressure... bahhh... just as bad as dora and co. who has miss ang and mrs tay... have CHEM AND A MATH next week on tue and mon respectively... hope i can do well for both... specially for a mths... to pull up my marks... bahhh... have been doing sooo average for this term can... sad... trying my best but my best is not enough you see...

we were strangers on a crazy adventure, never dreaming what we had to go through
now here we are, i'm suddenly standing, at the beginning with you...
no one told me, i was going to find you, unexpected what you did to my heart
this is the start
life is a road i wanna keep going, life is a river i wanna keep flowing
life is a road now and forever wonderful journey....
i'll be there when the world stops turning i'll be there when the storm is through
in the end i wanna keep standing at the beginning with you...

haha nice song rite... from the anastasia movie... dunno why i just started singing it then decided to type it out... anyway... went to macs AGAIN with the other debators... with juniors... we're gonna be made fat can... hahaha every week eat fast food...anyway... will be going to watch the finals next week... shld be quite interesting and having a debate AJC against NYJC... should be cool... oh well... lost my face when NIC MAO started corrupting the poor juniors head with rubbishy ideas... wun elaborate on it... thats all for now...

Thursday, August 18, 2005 hmmm... today the 3 tests... hope i pass all... not only pass but ace... but i think that will be a dream for SS... had GIS discussion today... and i am the honoured one to be the first to type an entry for our combined blog.. not yet made though hehe... short discussion for debate to prepare for tmrs competition. pary for us that we will have the confidence even though we are REALLY intimidated by the sound of the sch we are against... pray that we will have the usual confidence that we have to deliverour speeches and to think fast on our heads... especially me... 3rd spaeker... bahhh... suddenly feel cold all over thinking about it... wahhh sometimes i just feel like i need somebody to pour out my stresses and cry on... wahhh... i shall cry now...

ok... crying over... hiaz nthing else to blog... wish me luck in tmrs competition...

Wednesday, August 17, 2005 *woots* today had sailing... so rocks can [when in the sea] other than that, the teacher today totally sucked... tay bee kee lah i dun even noe how to spell her name... anyway she and the bus driver both rather asses lei... spoil our fun can?! everybody so damn pissed with both of them. first they make us late for sailing by 40 mins?! wad the lor... and still can scold us for being so noisy... wad the... then after the whole thing... we ALWAYS buy food cause we are hungry... wadda u expect from a bunch of lively, funky and cool ppl that go for sailing huh?! i mean DUH we definitely will be hungry can... pffttt then they say... hu say u can eat and drink on the bus? after dirty the bus blahblahblah... ok... i noe drinks cannot lah but eating we have been doing that EVERY WEEK? only this pathetic teacher in charge so bleh can... this cannot that cannot... why come so late... why take your own sweet time... why talk so loud... blah blah... arghhh wadever lah tay bee kee... not as if u the best rite... worst of all she our chinese teacher somemore can... at least she pass me on my oral... 10/20.. haha...

dun wan talk bout them already... make me angry only... today had physics test... hiaz... hope can do well... tmr have soooo many quiz... 3 can? social studies, e math, CME... bleh...then fri got lit test... haven even memorise quotes yet... arghhh

i'm like so worried for our debate... it seems that both peishan and nic mao are totally going no where with their cases... arghhh how to help them like that??? and its 2 days from now... pfffttt... i have to leave it in the hands of God already... cannot lean on my own strength and pride... tired... wanna go take nap

Tuesday, August 16, 2005 hahaha so happy today did not need to stay back till so late can come home sleep for a while... tmr have physics test bleh... got back e maths... so pissed can... 1/2 mark more can get full marks arghhh... anyway... TMR HAVE SAILING!!!!!! sooo happy... yay!!! dun wan type anymore...

Monday, August 15, 2005 *yawn* tired... brain tired... used up all my brain juices to think for debate today... super brain tired... but still need to study... bahhh... dun feel like studying... dun want to but have to... failed my chinese AGAIN! this time not so bad failed by only half mark... dun understand why chinese is complusory... only make my marks look horrible... pfffttt*

helping nic mao research for substantive... see i'm such a nice girl... dun need to help but i help*grins* anit i nice? haha duh rite?!... tired... dun wan type anymore...

Sunday, August 14, 2005 members of the house today we see that the opposition team is on the verge of breaking down due to the fact that we are in the middle of a competition however we DO NOT have a coach to help us and are therefore relying on our own brains to come up with pts. thankfully i am now talking to Deborah[previous coach] who is helping me greatly in crapping up pts and policies... thanks soooo much Deborah!! really am thankful for yr help. and so members of the house, we see that it may not be so bad after all due to the sudden help that we have received. there is still a spark of hope for us PLMGSS debators to get into the finals. now moving on to my next case... that on wad happened yesterday night. [drops formalities]

went to clark quay yesterday... didnt expect it to be so crowded cause there was a concert going on. the dancers were good and right smack in the girl dancers of ard 40 of them there was 1 lone boy... hahaha rather cute i must say haha... anyway enjoyed the various dancers... walked ard and bought 2 beautiful earrings!!! fell in love with them and they were rather cheap... went to macs... wanted to get ice cream... machine broke down much to the huge dissapointment of my family, ate curly fries, drank ice milo... finished then went out... was walking back to concert halfway when fire works came up... super nice can but rather short... it was sooooo nice...*sighs*

today had tuition... half dead after miss ang walked out... went to tricia's house... lol she lost her voice... sounded so funny... she and terence*tsk tsk... MS game already so high... kk anyway went to eat and COCO... tricia came along with her dog... rained heavily... got stuck there until terence came haha wrpped jaydee up then terence himself got wet lol... anyway stayed in their house for rather long watch him play MS... too bad he didnt die... then cannot level up haha now he level 29*pfffttt* angry anyway... best lah he... go and bully me... and i am suppose to write something bout him that is to make him sound bad... he requested it... TERENCE LEE as a god-bro... sucks...he bullys his dear god-sis[me] to the pt that i want to murder him but is unable to if not his dog will murder me...anyways he is a BIG BULLY who always whacks me... and did not get me a prezzie for my b day with the lame excuse that he used the money to fix his specs hahaha yupp... dun have anything else to say... u go and add in yrself in my tag board...

kk and so went to church... had dear nicole mao messaging me throughout the sermon which was rather bad... and then had small group discussion with the girls... haha they all very cute... lead them that time they keep on laughing... make me want to laugh but i leader so difficult not to laugh hahaha... suppose to talk about fellowship but charite keep on talking bout food lol...yupp yupp and so here i am typing away on the computer, Deborah my angel has just signed off and a load is taken off my back...*phew*

Friday, August 12, 2005 created my new blog!!! still under construction though. will take some time to make it perfect. *grins* finally the weekend is here. have sat and sun to rest even though we had a 2 1/2 day break already all thanks to national day. but had to mug last minute for major geography test. not good influence haha. have been slacking even though i told myself that i should buck up now in this new sememster. i'm going to fail my e math quiz!!! sigh have so many things to do before the new week starts... but never mind... i cando it with GOD!!! *woots* have 3 chapters of physics to mug for and a whole literature book to study for a essay test. rahhh... so many things so little time...
next week also have semi finals debate against SCGS. THBT ADULTS ARE BETTER VOLUNTEERS THAN TEENAGERS. OPP... bleh... 3rd speaker AGAIN!... encourage me guys!! must tell myself... i can be 3rd speaker, i can be 3rd speaker, i can be 3rd speaker... haha and then we spent most of our time crapping with dear adeline who was suppose to be there to help... but was of no use to us... haha went to macs where we had our tea break consisting of ice cream and ice cream only. excluding adel who ordered a whole set. anyways today was quite ok i suppose... wad with only 2 days of sch haha...