It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Sunday, September 25, 2005 ughhh everybody is ALMOST dead due to the exams that are only one week away. tomorrow i have composition exams. people pray that i know what to write for my chinese compo. pray that God will give me the wisdom and strength to carry on. hiaz. haven finished my studying yet. have a whole chem ahead of me, social studies 2 chapters, geog 2 huge chapters, literature haven started, chinese haven started, at least physics finished but haven practice, e math and a math practicing exams papers. sigh for a math teacher haven finish teaching yet... die... and i got problem with LOG!!! help!!! at least circular measure is not tested.

kk. back to reality and back to hitting the books.

Saturday, September 24, 2005 yesterday was a total slack day for me. i didnt study on thursday AND yesterday due to panges of cramps and just felt like slacking. went out for dinner with my family last night to IKEA. ate their bestest swedish meatballs in the world then walked around. bought a box to dump all my textbooks inside due to the fact that my bookshelf was filled to the max already. parents bought chairs for cell group. went to queenstown to get my shorts and it was only after much scouting that i managed to find it. after that went home. now i know it sounds rather boring but u know... its still shopping right? and who can say that shopping is boring? yupp hahaha and so i didnt studay at all yesterday.

to make up for lost time, i made myself wake up at 8 in the morning when it was the only day that i could sleep in. studied for 1 and 1/2 hrs before having my guitar lessons where i was desperately trying to master the muting technique to no avail and my teacher chuckling to himself. oh wells, at least i enjoyed myself. played songs in the form of blues which sounded so much like chinese chi-na songs i was kinda disgusted. but after we added in the swings and triple beat it sounded so much betta like jazz. hahaha... anyways finished at 12 then ate lunch and slacked a little more before heading back to my books for an hour. taking a break now yupp then will complete my physics studying... yays at least i manage to finish a subject but need to practice. trying to finish geog ASAP so that can go on to lit and chem which i have not even started on yet.

freaking out for chem cause there's A LOT to study for a i have not started... as i said earlier... oh wells... what else can i do but complain and start right now... which i dun feel like doing... ppffttt life sucks at this moment

Tuesday, September 20, 2005 throat is sore... i'm tired. but i have to continue striving on. the exams are approaching very soon and i have not completed my revision. have not started on chemistry, chinese and literature. have only done 2 chapters of geography which is A LOT, physics halfway through thank God and and 1 chapter of social studies.

did trigo today during e math lesson and found out that i totally and i mean TOTALLY forgot the sine and cosine rules. kau was like OMG sam you forgot... in my heart i was panicking. exams are 1 and a 1/2 weeks away and i'm not ready for it. but the person to blame is myself so i have no right to complain. i just have to commit every single thing to the Lord and he will provide me with the wisdom and strength to go on the perservere.

Monday, September 19, 2005 today had chinese oral. i guess you can say that it was okay. the reading part was a bit of a problem for me though. as you know, my chinese aint that powerful k. *grins* but i can say, loud and proud that i did my utmost best in trying to make sense of every single character in the passage and trying to guess how it was to be pronounced. hahaha. while waiting for my turn, i was just relaxing and laughing around. SERIOUS. was listening to the crappy jokes that yeeling and group were saying and our lame little actions of trying to find each other's ticklish spot. ANGELINE'S spot is her armpit. lol. ZOEY was her back. JELLY cannot find. ZHI WEI her ear and neck. YEELING her neck... i think... hahaha... luckily they didnt attack me. hahaha. played a prank on yeeling. she asked me to take care of her leo pic but she totally forgot about for a looonnnggg time. had actually passed it to Melissa hahaha. but it concludes that Leo is actually not her precious as she can afford him to be "KIDNAPPED!!!" hahaha. was rolling with laughter on the stage when i saw her face, one of frantic and panic hahaha...

well... back to the main topic that of the chinese oral. the conversation was about e mail and telephones. something about whether i would prefer to use the internet or telephone to communicate with people... tried my best. its all left to God now. but i really pray that i will score... NOT TOO BAD... yeah... and that means an AVERAGE PASS.

have a lot to study now. only started studying properly last week. yeah. a lot to cover for the 7 subjects. excluding english which there is nothing to study for.receiving a file from nana now so i'll view it first before retreating to my humble but messy den to study.

rather tired but must keep my mind and brain alret to grasp the notes and information. sigh... a super tiring day where i wasted about2 1/2 hours doing nothing but slacking due to the TEACHERS fault of requesting us to assemble at 2:10 when my class oral only started at 4:30 or so. crazy right? oh wells. they should push our exams 1 day behind then cause they made us loose one day of study. haha. that was yeeling's idea.

finally got my electric guitar string for the E. yupp... can play it now hahaha love playing my guitar... especially power chords. although still trying to perfect it. my activities are considered full for this week and any time that i am free would be spent on mugging and studying my textbooks and making notes.have 2 lessons of math tuition this week. cause have to wrap up the topics then start practicing.

Sunday, September 18, 2005 whoohoo... we rocked for worship today. although everything that could go wrong did went wrong and we only had 1/2 an hour of practice before worship started. but we did well. *grins* hi 5 man, although some parts i did play on the wrong timing but i was ok. people who didnt know what instrument i was playing were all assuming that i was playing the keyboard... i was in my head like noooo.... i dun play the keyboard... and i cant play it for nuts... I PLAY THE GUITAR! lol... then their face would show that they ARE surprise... ppffttt... why? girls cant play guitar is it? ahahaha

finally started my journey of mugging... for some subjects... tomorrow i have chinese listening and oral. hope that i dun flunk it man... sigh...

Friday, September 16, 2005 my throat is a little sore... uh oh...but i claim my healing so it'll go away! talking to jasmine now. i guess its sometimes very difficult to approach the subject of whats good or bad for a person incase she mistakens whatever you are saying. its like... you want to tell them that it isnt good for them, spiritually, but... afraid that they'll think what you are saying is rubbish and thus cause an even bigger gap to bridge.

playing for this week's worship on sunday. looking forward to it. however the practice session would be a rush one cause its only right before the worship...

having problem in making myself study... sigh... exams are sooo near and yet i haven even started except for physics... sigh...

planning to have a 2B1 bbq again... but not sure where to hold it though. life is a busy road.

Thursday, September 15, 2005 irritating terence is talking to me now... ppffttt...suaning me can...sigh... wad a miserable person he is... the person on the other line... cannot make it... arghhh... keep on suaning me... shut up lah!!! hiaz... haha... a guy suaning me rather bad rite... lousy person rite girls? rite rite... lousy god brother... ppffttt... angry...

anyway the suaning king... hiaz... dunno wad to say abt him lah...suppose to be an encouraging person but he ar... sigh*... dunno wad to say...

today had prize presentation... rather pai seh... stubbins just had to go and announce to the whole school about my status... sigh... i loose face...then had pe... whee rather fun cause can play basketball... so we played hahaha... fun fun fun...

hmmm... had physics practical also... hope i dun fail cause my whole section B... sigh wrong... the gradient suppose to be 1.5 i get 70.72.... when i saw it i was like wad the... 70.72... but couldnt change cause got no protractor... oh wells...

had english oral as well... hope i did well for this... stupid conversation topic. wad ambition do you think is fun? wanted to saw lawyer... then thank God i never say... cause can consider it not FUN! but thrilling instead and serious... hahaha

Wednesday, September 14, 2005 studied wif celeste today... i guess you can consider that we did and learnt something within that 2hr span. yeah... tomorrow have physics pracital and english oral... cant come home early... oh wells... hiaz... i wanna join basketball... but dun dare ask mrs teo cause the sessions wanna finish already... oh wells... focus on my studies i guess... rather sian right now... dun feel like doing anything but slack... forgot to bring home all my books to study... arghhh... and my skin is peeling horribly now... because of the sunburn... ppffttt... tomorrow have the prize presentation... finally... can get my stuff back... and spend on the book vouchers... friday meeting up with stubbins to discuss on debate plans for the rest of the year and next year... hope that we will be getting somewhere with that little discussion...oh wells

no basketball for me... sigh... not for now... not for ever... i wanna play basketball

Tuesday, September 13, 2005 today rather slack cause of chemistry practical. had 1 and 1/2 hours of it. then took our own time to get back to class for e math. in the end only left about 5 mins for lesson. rocks. dicussed animal day. wanted to be incharge of backstage. was given that role, but now they want me to be emcee... i really cannot lor. sigh... yeah... english period miss ang never come so slack. then left chem.

tomorrow celeste coming to my house then we study geog and a math together*whee*... haha... anyways... i may be going for MEGA camp... yay!!!super happy can... only me and cheryl hoe... for eldds... sad... anyways... need to go study... ppffttt... physics

Monday, September 12, 2005 ughhh... today first day of term 4. tired but okay i guess. tried to sleep during chinese but couldnt find a suitable sleeping position to sleep so i gave up. others were sleeping or doing their work, as in geography work. angeline was rather amusing to watch, her head nodding up and down. haha from the back very funny. rushed a math homework this morning. was doing doin then off light... ppfftt... but continued anyway haha. yeah. almost every teacher that came in reminded us that examinations were coming. yes yes we know. *sighs* tomorrow have chemistry practical. titration and qualitative analyse. sigh. have to piah for it later. and start studying other subjects also. thursday have physics practical and english oral. exams exams. just when i came back from paradise. oh well. must try but seriously when i sit down on the computer i cant drag myself away from the screen. oh wells ppfftt... feel like playing basketball now. *sigh* sacrifices to make.

Sunday, September 11, 2005 suddenly filled with confusion. or maybe i'm doubting you... i don't know. i really do not know. why cant i myself bring to trust you, let alone anyone... sigh... my life is slowly crumbling, or should i say ... my SOCIAL life... yeah...

Sam... you're left alone in the dark. nobody to run to, no one to turn to. Forget it sam, you're nothing but a useless human who is living for the sake of living and studying cause you have to. Your a failure in being socialble. you're a loner whom no one relise. your just living your own life, no one to love, no one to call as your true friend. YOU'RE A FAILURE. Don't try to fit in sam. you won't be able to. they have their own group while yours is scattered. so don't try to fit in, you'll just be an extra and nothing else.

Sunday, September 11, 2005 hey hey hey, i'm back!!! Got bad sunburn, realy hurting now but worth it hahaha... tired but happy. back to reality now. a whole new term of studying and mugging. hiaz... sad... holiday last so short... sad... dunno wad to arite... so many things... maybe i'll just skip it...

Thursday, September 08, 2005 went for dental check up today... at new doctor... for me lah... then say was cause braces last time never do properly so a bit crooked blah blah have to accept it... i was like WAD THE... in the first place it was me who decided that i didnt want to extraction and so have a bit of crooked teeth... but who cares... looks arent the most impt... he is lucky that i control myself... if not HE WOULD BE THE ONE WITH A CROOKED FACE AND NOT TEETH... yupp then went to eat at suntec pasta mania wif sis and mom... ate that went sort of shopping lah... bought a guys sleevless shirt... nice kk... at FOX... actually main aim was to find a jacket... so went to topshop... jackets there i dun like... walk walk to citilink... go in to the shops... go to surf babe... saw the jackets very nice... but rather expensive... told mom then she was like hia yah never mind lah... just go and buy... but will last you for 10 years hahaha... yupp... then took super long to choose... all so nive can... wanted a brown one but dun have baggy one... so bought a $85 pink roxy jacket... kk u will probably say... wad the ... samsee is mad in buying a super ex and PINK jacket... but... haha... dun have anything else that i fancied so i got that lor... yupp... anyway... got a lot of nice things there but since mom bought that for me i dun dare ask her to buy others already hehehe... next time i go wif frens then go buy... dumdeedumm...

tomorrow going to phuket... yesyes... dont be paranoid... even though there WAS [past tense] a tsunami does not mean that it will happen again... and i seriously dun understand why people are sooo DUMB... ok lemme give u an example...

SamSee:i'm going to phuket
Dumbperson:HUH?! got tsunami leh...
SamSee: [rolls eyes]... so u think happen once will happen again lah? rather stupid leh u... just because it happen once does not mean will everyday have tsunami rite? hiazzz... you ar... super paranoid can
Dumbperson:ohhh... [speechless]

yupp yupp and so you see... a lot of people are that dumb to think that just because it has happened... confirm will have again... when all was fine they heck care happy go there not scared of tsunami happening cause they say... " where got tsunami... never happen before..." but now they like that... *sigh* people's mentality is RATHER... and i emphasise the RATHER... STUPID... yupp...

sooo... who wants wad huh?hmmm i'll see... if i remember you... i'll get something... if not... too bad*shrugs shoulders* yupp... *laughs*

Wednesday, September 07, 2005 today went sailing... sailed on my own for a while, capsized twice within that short period of time hahaha... but the instructer complimented me... hehe that i can sail hahaha... anyway I'M GOING for holiday... as in phuket... cancelled it rite but managed to get the tickets hahahs so happy... anyway... need to study before going... ppffttt... thats the downside

Tuesday, September 06, 2005 WELLlll... my other thumb is injured today. yesterday was the left thumb. today its the right thumb. hehe... anyways, my 3 hrs of chem is over, HOWEVER, i have homework to do and 4 chapters of PHYSICS!! ahhhh... but i cant find my workbook... uh oh... i'm in trouble... say bye bye sam see... yupp... today after lessons stoned a bit at the canteen wif jelly and zoey... then played basketball with amirah and fren... the chews were one team and us the other... play until wanna go home... walked super slow with jelly to bus stop, wait super long for bus. yupp... came home, went swimming... ate dinner... hiaz... need to do my homework and go on a massive hunt for my physics workbook..lol... kk... tmr got sailing... maybe miss ang sending me to the moe centre... shuang... haha...my msn rather quiet this week... yeah... a lot of them go china trip yuppie...

Monday, September 05, 2005 today i did play basketball... in the sweltering heat... but its okay. i like the sun! injured my index finger and thumb. now typing without use of thumb hahaha... had physics lessons today, wasnt too bad. tomorrow have chemistry, 3 hrs, yeah yeah i know its crazy, waddaya expect?

i talked to stubbins, arghh... give up on fighting for debate already. she does not give me a chance to explain to her whatever i am thinking. even if i think is for the benefit of the group, she'll be like.. "NO NO YOU'RE GETTING IT ALL WRONG BLAH BLAH..." hrump... debate captain my foot... never even give me the respect to talk to her properly. always call me out DURING literature lessons then we talk... wad the lah. cant she see that we should not mix ACADEMIC LESSONS with CCA'S?! arghhh... thats the bad thing bout having a cca teacher taking u for ANY subject...

fingers hurting... ermmm more like my thumb so will stop here.

Sunday, September 04, 2005 my new skin is still underconstruction... yepp.. but its nice rite? took it from blogskins... felt like having a girly skin but not too girly haha... yepp... later have church... mission sunday... so people dressing up... i dun intend to haha... dun have anything to wear... was asked whether wanna go play basketball... but cant... anyway now raining so dun think can play... hope tmr after lessons can play... HOPEFULLY... hooked onto the game.

results came out, parents want me to take tuition, i refuse to, rely on my own self to improve. amazingly i improved overall... not bad huh? have i told u that i failed 3 subjects? yeah... but the rest i did not bad, out of 5 sub got 4 A's and 1 B3... the rest D7 bleh... pts 16... lousy... all because of sciences... yepp... really have to buck up... hiaz...

dunno how i'm going to church ltr... raining like siao

Thursday, September 01, 2005 today was super tiring. woke up at 7 50 to perpare to go to sch for geog field research. walk so much and i was stupid enough to wear slippers. and the sun was hot so i got sunburnt and so now i have an ugly tan at my neck area. ughhh... then went out with nic to go and find a shop to make our debate tees. however the shop that we went to was totally horrible... they way they treat their customers... ughhh disgusting.pathetic buch... went to orchard and wandered aminlessly round. went to wisma, taka, hmmm ohh wheelock, and slacked a lot. lol we did a lame thing. went into the shops as in the outlets eg. Zara and ESPRIT and tried on wadeva clothes we wanted. then later left it and didnt by cause we were broke hahaha... bought a box of chocolates fo mrs ng and mrs stubbins BUT i left it at coffeebean and i had to buy another box of choco... went back to J8, nic went home, i met my mom and siblings, told her of me needing to buy choco, then she said: want to buy pls buy something that is good..." and to my utmost horror, she bought 48 dollars worth of bodyshop items!!! i was like wad the... hiaz... yuppyupp... rather tired now... wanna play basketball tmr...hmmm hafta download the geog pics now... send to miss ting...