It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Wednesday, November 30, 2005 tomorrow i'll be sitting on the ferry again, sailing back to my camp ground at bintan. Not that i'm going back to the same resort and with the same bunch of people though. Now i'll be heading there with my family and not to camp but to RELAX in a hotel. sigh. seriously that place is is...i cant say heaven cause it isnt, but its sorta perfect beach setting ya know? crystal clear water, coral reefs. sigh.

okok no dreaming right now though. i think i'm like having a cold or something. but i hope i'll be okay by tmr morning. with prayer and belief, i'll be healed alright!!! sigh. going to bintan means that i wont be able to watch the AND 1 basketball tournament. sigh. Zoey told me today also have but later confirmed that dont have. oh well. wad can i do right?

the basketball team has not been confirmed yet and i dont want to get my hopes up too high. not that i'm a pessimist but seriously, when you think about it, most of the time its talk and no action. oh well. if it does go underway i'll be REALLY happy. if not i wont blame anyone. *shrugs* so yeah.

showed jas a particular picture and she FREAKED when she say it hahaha. said that he looked like a typical AH BENG lol. funny. cant imagine what she'll look like if she sees him really hahaha.

Monday, November 28, 2005 rahhh...today was suppose to go and watch AND 1 match today in the evening...budden SOMEBODY called chew told me wrongly cause her friend told her wrongly...box her then she know arh hahaha...anyways went to play at lor liew lian then wif both chews...was super sian cause got no one to play with...so we went to maplewood park. met angela and fren...played...played a crappy game la seriously...then went to macs. ate fish macdippers!!! woots..chew got away with a cheaper fish macdipper cause the aunty under charge her lol. So we were like yay! hahaha

oh dora lost all her contacts in her phone so we spam her wahaha. Zoey was 'like i think u chio.i'm sheryl's fren'...wahahaha...until sheryl called zoey's phone. We freaked la hahaha super funny hahahaha...cant stop laughing.

then my ma..sigh..ok at least she let me go out.. come back 5 mins late she pissed...wad the la...nvm... shall try to ren..

Saturday, November 26, 2005 need to go back soon to church. just came back home to change and use the com for a while hehe. had worship practice session just now. play until my fingers hurt like crazy. its red and the skin will become thick la. sigh. nvm.

rain poured when we finished our practice but fortunately we borrowed umbrellas to use. not that it was of much help anyway. i was soaked la. wat with marcus and mattias. they told lame and corny jokes i rolled my eyes. gervais, daniel and andrew came along...talked crap listening to what happened in marcus ncc... stoned until 2 30...then i'm here. later have to go back for practice again and then 4 30 have the service. crap la

i have to share and i scared if i screw up. also cant play some songs properly for nuts...all the sharps and minor chords..i see all go gong gong...God help!!!! yeah

Thursday, November 24, 2005 i have blisters on my feet. skin is peeling and when i walk its pain... haha but not that pain la. just uncomfortable. played basketball at boon keng from 1 30 like that until 5 30. played with a lot a lot of ppl... haha. then got this guy...i think called warren g. super funny la he...not exactly cool... haha but yeah. his afro-american. cool huh? he say he play with iverson blah blah...dunno if should believe him...but most prob true la...cause he youth pastor. why would he want to lie right? haha...super tall and all the muscles...wahh hahaha...

sian...have to go write my testimony for baptism class...haven started. then tmr have ld meeting, sat have whole day jamming and worship session, sun have last baptism class. hmmm...haven start my homework except for my e math...sian...

I DUN WAN TO THINK ABOUT WHEN SCH IS STARTING *WAILS*.

Sunday, November 20, 2005 had church today but didnt have bs... after that slacked at the coffee shop with xing yin zhi zhen they all, waited for the scores for singspiration next week... hmmm looking forward to it... then went back with tricia. slacked even more at her house. watched terence play maple talked crap... he help me massage me blue black...talk even more...looked at tricia's baby pictures. played with baby joash...sigh he's sooo cute..yeah today super stone day la...i still haven do my homework yet...sigh...

Friday, November 18, 2005 woke up early today for the sake of basketball haha...my dad was saying "so you can wake up for basketball, cannot wake up for school la?" haha...its really interesting huh how your brain functions and if you love what your gonn do after you wake up, your whole body just wakes up and says GOOD MORNING! yeah.

so i headed down to the court near school. met zoey and esther at 9 there. they were suppose to practice shooting wif me la. in the end eat big breakfast. and an ant came to join them until they squash the poor thing haha... i'll do that as well lar... haha

ok anyways the rest came, played 4-on-4. after that moli and moli me came so played 6-on-6. had to leave early cause had tuition...ppffttt... but nvm... at least its a start to getting my homework done and start revision yeah...

sigh..i ust hate to think of school

Wednesday, November 16, 2005 i thought of him, standing on stage, talking passionately with emphasis on the SPECIAL words, being cheered on by his team mates, being named best speaker time and again with what seems for eternity...sigh. it puts me down.

not that its another bout of jealousy again, but now its more of...of discouragement. of hearing and SEEING people get that speaker award for almost or i can say EVERY debate that he participates in while i...stand up and give my best, but don't hear of my name ever. its that very thing that has caused me to consider carefully if i should stop debating once i step into jc drop it altogether. for the past competitions that i have been to, countless time i have put in my best, and countless times i have failed. Is it time for me to give up? maybe.

i tell myself. lets take 1 last chance. next year's nationals. will i ever make it to the top 10? will i continue my debating career in JC? will debate follow me on to Uni? i wonder...

will i ever have that chance of doing it internationally... probably not. i'm not your typical debate speaker. not those who are born to speak. but one who has to work hard and put in every effort to get it... the debate with myself continues...

Friday, November 11, 2005 whee so long never blog already...went for camp at BINTAN...rocks... but dun bother to say evreything... sigh...i'm camp sick...hahaha dumdeedumdumdum...on cloud nine... feel like sleeping... yawn...

MEGA CAMP ROCKS...P.I.E ALSO!!! PERSERVERE, INTEGRITY,ENERGIZERS WOOTS* WE ROCK... AND MURNI MDM.... YAY!! SEE YOU AT REFRESHER CAMP MDM!!

Sunday, November 06, 2005 tomorrow i'll be heading off to Bintan for Mega camp...for 4 days. don't miss me guys!!! yay!! cant wait to get burnt haha and enjoy myself. camps rocks! except for the bathing part and mozzies. well looking forward to it...and dear dear CHUA is my group leader lol. why am i fated to be in her group and under her control? haha jking. whee so fun... at least Bintan has clean sea water haha.

Thursday, November 03, 2005 *whee*...today was like super fun.actually only went one place lah...SENTOSA!!! yay!!! haha...super fun...was dragged into the sea by a bunch of nut cases, sat and waited for the tide and waves as if i've never been to the sea bafore,played with dogs and watched them swim,tried to coax skippy into swimming but to no avail, cycled around the beach in our wet shirts, ate a $22.15 worth of pizza, got lost from the whole class, played volleyball, played basketball loing with a score of 8-11, swam across to the other side...just a small 'island' while Zoey watched, drew a basketball on the sand and people stepped on it WTH. lol. wanted to shower, but the toilet was bursting at its seams, ended up changing clothes only with sand on our backs, lost the group again and waited for the train. sat on the train and wasted 30mins going round the whole island with the thought that it would bring us to the bus station,ended up at the same place that we alighted. rushed for the bus, saw super many people waiting for it, and its SUPER MANY... anyways the buses came quite fast so it wasnt bad. enjoyed the company of screw loose people AKA jelly and singing co. and zoey and eunice. Jolene, Ama and I were the only sane ones there cause we had tighten our screws lol...was enjoying myself when the CALL came and spoiled my mood. my ma just had to call and demand me to go back home just because she was going overseas... ugh...made me uber pissed can? arghhh... heck lah...

anyways enjoyed myself and i guess the class did too!!! yay!! and the class tee rocks!!! and i got an ugly burnt. now my tone is ughhh

Wednesday, November 02, 2005 today had to go back to school just to return report book...after that went with Zoey and her clique to J8 eat mac's breakfast...Chew couldnt find her wallet... but as usual she always cannot find her wallet...so i didnt really care until she REALLY couldnt find it...lol...she freaked out, i freaked out...but after that realised that the others were missing so thought that they took it to play a prank...in the end when we asked them...the freaked out as well...anyways thank God that 55 stopped at the bus interchange... haha and she managed to get the wallet back...

played basketball for an hr after that and then went to park mall to get my contact lens. Zoey was nice enough to follow me...not like Renee lol...haha anyways came back home...took crap pics on the way in the mrt...

yay!!! tomorrow going sentosa wif the class*woots* anyways pray that it wun rain... so that everyone of us can get a tan!! yay!!!

Tuesday, November 01, 2005 i'm BORED...REALLY BORED. even terence couldnt force me to play badminton... well i did play for 15 mins but after that...cause it was too hot...sigh... its hot...either hot or raining like siao.