It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Saturday, December 31, 2005

well this is interesting cause i've considered being a lawyer but put that away cause i thought that i wont be a good one... hmmmm

Saturday, December 31, 2005 much has happened this two days but i'm not going to relate all that has been going on. Lets just say that some of us had to stop and think about some stuff that has been happening so far. well i'm glad thats settled and i can move on without feeling hurt.

Yesterday's refresher camp was okay i guess. nothing rah rah. compared to the bintan camp it was more dead. ok you guys will say like durh? yeah. but the team bonding games were funn!!! except for the last. The instructors spread out a canvas sheet on the grass and splashed water on it. Muddy footprints could be seen. we were suppose to crawl through to the other side. well although it wasnt that long, but imagine, draging yourself on a wet and dirty canvas sheet? and we couldnt bathe as well. as yeah. some of us thought that well we'll let the others go first then it wont be so dirty. but noo. They re-used the water and so muddy water was splashed on us. yucks... how disgusting is that. my shoes were soaked and i walked bare footed for the rest of the camp including the canteen and basketball court. The camp fire was sooo small. and nic and i were thinking how to make it bigger for her camp fire for the prefects. got to know some ld girls better.

ok i guess that you can consider my homework done. well i didnt bother to look up abt doris lessing's writing style and have not read through the chem chapter that we're suppose to study by ourselves. Didnt bother to do the social studies mindmap as well. for chinese i didnt bother to read the book and the compo.. you can just say i left it to a certain someone to help me out. :)) so yeah... i'm done with my homework.

Today went to jelly's block. more like her void-deck. celebrated her birthday. made her use her teethe to take out the candle then zoey and angel push her face into the cake. haha too bad only half her face got it caue she was doing it sideways. anyways went to play basketball... super sian today.. the sun so bright. ester and li peng came later. played for awhile then headed home.

hmmm suppose to go for singsperation now but dont feel like going. dumdeedumm. i wanna cut my hair. :))

Thursday, December 29, 2005 Boy am i freaking mad. My bro came into my room and told me while laughing,' i'm wearing your shorts'. and mind you its FBT shorts. i was yelling at him to take it out immediately and he refused until i screamed at him. HOW DUMB CAN HE GET? and to think that he had 242 for his PSLE. i suppose he couldnt think right for simple things. DUMB. rahhh.

Went to the dentist today for cleaning. After that spent 5 hrs walking ard and shopping for nothing in particular. But i didnt buy anything. Seriously Singapore's stuff is sooo boring. every shop sells the same kind of clothing. B-O-R-I-N-G.

Yay i finished my english compo and movie review last night while Norman entertained me haha. glad to get a load off. Now its only reading up stuff and completing one chapter of Physics in TYS which is sadd. Why physics... why?*wails* i sooo do not want to do it.

Tmr I wont have time to do my own stuff *sobs*. Have megacamp refresher course at school from 9 30 to 9. cant go for night service at church then. rahhh. and i still have to do presentation for cca. So much to do so little time.

When i get back to school... boy... have to get the Julia Gabriel debate team for our school settled. really difficult to choose.. as in what i want and what i must do is like different you know? Alway always i have to remind myself 'girl debating is not abt you only mannn. Think abt the rest' rahhhh. and auditions for next year's sec ones. Really hope that we can get a good bunch. At least 3 good ones. At least.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005 You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005 went to watch Narnia with some other SFers and my friends. Celeste brought her band friends. yeah. The show was great. and i mean really great. uh huh

after that went for lunch with the rest, enjoyed life as it was then and headed to sch.

Lots of things to do before the cca fair. sigh the responsibility one has to hold as a leader. Stuff to photocopy, essays to collect, homework to do juniors to train for next year's competitions. sighhh. not looking forward to school man. not at all.

who wants to help me do my homework?

Monday, December 26, 2005 Christmas came and left just like that *snaps fingers*. Dont you realise, its so easy to look forward to a certain occasion, enjoy it then it disappears. But facing everyday things we dread it, sigh and moan and groan about it. i.e school. yeah. I suppose everyone or should i say every student's mind is now only focusing on the re-opening of school on 3rd jan. tsk tsk. and i'm not exception. well we all cant run away from school yeah? but who agrees that scholl is a torture? especially Singapore schooling?pls tag if you think so. :)

And so i'm trying to finish all my homework, contemplating whether or not i should do the commonwealth essay and trying to convince myself that i must do my chinese compo.

had Breadtalk on Christmas eve at church and the turn out was great. only hope that they would continue to come back to SF and learn more bout christ. yesterday's service was okay i guess but it didnt have a great impact on me. Finally saw Amanda and Beatrice. Their accent was rather strong. sighh. pretty soon they'll be flying back to America in jan.

going to the zoo on thurday. yay. a whole bunch of us. denise gracia andrew darel me maybe marcus and some others. pray that it wont rain and that we'll have a bright and sunny day!!!

well have to do my LITERATURE right now. rahhhh

Wednesday, December 21, 2005 sighh. homework waiting to be completed. well at least i'm almost done with my a math and trying to do my lit. english is another problem, cause we have to do a book and movie review. sighhh. i dont want the holidays to end. i must confess. haven even started on my research paper for the Holocaust which i myself asked the rest of the debaters to do. sighhh.

Finally finished my christmas shopping. except for Gracia. Still cant find anything appropriate for her. tsk tsk. so difficult to get stuff for her. haha. actually she also has problem finding a tote bag that i want. yeah haha. sighhh i really cant stop thinking about school re-opening. rahhh. i dont want it to start. it'll just be a year of nightmare preparing for O's.

O LEVEL HERE I COME! blehhh. stupid exams. stupid stupid stupid. i just want to play basketball forever. *woosh* goes the ball

Monday, December 19, 2005 ARGHH. i type a nice post and it got written away. yeah. i'm not in the mood to deliver a nice post now. but never mind. i'll try. well for starters, i got baptised yesterday with my dear dear friends since primary school. We are so fortunate to spend this special event together to witness each others baptism and celebrate it together. yeah.

Had BS after that, where Joyce shared to us her troubles and thanksgiving and what she learnt. Its really great to see how much my sisters are growing in the Lord. praise God for that. Oh and did i mention, being baptised creates you into a celebrity for a day haha. everywhere you go, people will stop you in the hallways and staircases to congratulate you. It was really nice of them to remember who got baptised and wish them well. How sweet. Well next year would be the guys turn i suppose. haha.

Had lunch at coco after that before denise, deborah and gracia headed down to my house while they waited for me to pack my things for the sleepover at Gracia's. Lug my electric guitar to church cause andrew wanted me to bring it to his house but i refused to carry it so he did haha.

Wrapped the christmas presents at her house while watching pride and prejudice, miss congeniality and legally blonde. haha. like how many movies is that. haha. had dinner, that aunty lee shya cooked and bought. after that played awhile with andrew's guitar while he checked out mine.

Headed down to orchard with denise, gracia, andrew, deb to meet desmond to go light watching! was crapping around at Orachrd mrt, you know trying out the circle of heads looking onto the floor thing? yeah we were trying that our when suddenly i saw this pair of legs outside our circle. thought was a small boy or something so i ignored it until somebody shouted HEY! LET ME IN! lol. was desmond. we all got a shock haha. yeah. so walked around, took pictures, enjoyed the lights, enjoyed the atmosphere, the people, the company. justin called halfway saying that he wanted to meet us, and soo after a long time of trying to find each other we met up at the mrt again haha. then we headed to City hall. the lights there were nice as well or maybe even nicer. walked from raffels hotel to esplanade where we slacked,sat and lied down on the stone floor of the pool of water and tried looking for stars haha. took a group photo then headed back home.

reached gracia's house at 12 08, used the com, slacked, showered and slept around 3. woke up at 10 plus, ate rubbish then had lunch at J8 before splitting up. Adrew slept with us as well ahaha that guy. he fell asleep in a corner while waiting to receive smses. he was messaging the whole night and could hear his stupid phone vibrating going zzz. lucky for him i didnt throw my pillow at him.

so the outing ended up with 4 girls and 4 guys crapping and fooling around taking weird pics and enjoying each others company haha.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005 came back from SF retreat yesterday but was too tired and lazy to post an entry. The retreat was short. i mean, it was only 3 days and i went on the second day. usually it'll be like 5 days kind of thing. sighh. but never mind. everybody had a great time.

what with jamming at 12am outside the chalet, pockets of people playing bridge and heart-attack and the rest snoring away, it really was a great time to bond with each other and just to have fun together. i mean, how often is it that you get to spend one or two nights with your fellow SFers?

The theme was knowing your influence, being an influence. and the workshops we had were really good, tying in with the theme really well. thanks moses and jacob!! the last day was spent packing up, having QT, and taking group photos!!! after that a whole bunch of us headed to Tampanese mall to have lunch. enjoyed the time spent together and remembering the good times in past retreats. after that we headed home. could not decided whether to take 72 or 22 so we stood in the middle of the two and waited for the bus that came first haha. 72 came and so we went to the 2nd level of the bus right at the end in which desmond and 2 others proceeded to fall asleep, Zhi zhen, gervais and me recalling the dog and bone game last year which we used a banana and later in turned to mush *durh* and how different fruits would react differently to our throws and passes. haha.

took 53 after alighting from 72 and after that all of us went back home. the great thing was that we were all in the same estate and most of us in the same block. interesting huh. Terence and Tricia on level 2, I on level 3, Keith on level 2 the ajoining wing, desmond level 3 and gervais level 4. It couldnt get better.

Sadly though our estate is going to be en-blocked so we dont have much longer with each other. sighss. oh wells.

had a number of eyecandy present at the retreat though i wont go further into details and tell who. denise, gracia, deb and many girls under their spells were swooning over the various eyecandys. really amusing actually haha. well...its going to remain what it is until the next time I blog, cause i have to rush down to Serangoon gardens macs for physics group study... UGhhh. somebody save me. PHYSICS..bleh.

Saturday, December 10, 2005 ok i've been busy lately with debate camp and helping the younger ones prep their cases and worrying over them like something. (i'm not going to say) anyway it seems that, from the reports that robyn has given to me that they wont be able to advance to the quarter final round cause they only managed to win 1 out of 3 while the 4th debate results was kept a secret. seriously, i find this particular competition extremely rubbishy and ridiculous, and for the next few years if they were to ever hold it again would reject their invitation to join them. What with explecits used by the organisers, and phrases like 'scums of the earth' its a wonder and extreme amazement how these kind of people turn out to be debaters and debate organisers as well.

and yes, i'm sneering and scoffing at how lousy their attitude is and their limited range of vocabulary that they have to resort to vulgarities while debriefing debaters for debates. With pathetic reasons of why they chose to give 12 motions and ask the debaters to prepare 24 cases i simply cannot consume the fact that they are PEOPLE who are USUALLY respected for LOGICAL thinking, INTELLIGENCE, and POLITENESS.

ok enough said about them. They don't deserve to be mentioned so much in my blog.

The Debate Association camp was okay i guess. the first day of workshops weren't exactly useful with the fact that i've heard exactly the same things before at AJC Mayors debate series. The exhibition debate was ok. nothing exciting excluding some small laughs here and there. What meant to be the appreciation of the HUMAN body, a speaker turned it into appreciating the MALE body. For a while i was a little confused i must confessed and guessed that Auyong was mixed up which turned out to be true. Her face was flushed with embarrassment after that.

3rd Speakers were brought up during the question and answer session where i was busily soaking up info just in case i continue to stay as 3rd for next year.

Today was better I must say. had rebuttals workshop in which motions like THBT EVERYTHING LEADS TO SEX. haha interesting topic huh?! yeah. then had policy workshop with Jon pflug in which in proceeded to fire questions at me for the first section. Learnt one thing i guessed. It isnt that good to have yr previous coach in a debate workshop that you have joined haha. you could here 'Sam what do you think.' or 'Sam whats your answer to this.' seriously its not enjoyable at all when you don't have an answer in mind. Nicole was attacked as well during the question and answer session and she just stared stupidly at the ground until her team mate came to her rescue haha.

We had discussing for a motion and after that 6 was picked randomly to debate it. Frankly speaking, i was a little disappointed when i wasn't one of them. Since Au-yong had opened POIS to the floor, people were randomly standing up and POI-ing the speakers. I only warmed up to it at 3rd prop though where i kept standing up at fireing POIS at the poor sec 1 Barker debater. He's really cute though. Cute as in funny not cute cute. he has the sam ehabit as robyn. with the free hand going up and down like its chopping something.

David and i were like laughing about it throughout his whole speech. headed down to the main room where another exhibition debate was held. this time more interesting, with ex-Singapore national debaters against D.E.P advance people. enjoyed it, with rubbishy things coming up halfway through e.g. bananas, castrating, and religion coming up. really enjoyable. oh and phrases like this came up as well "f***ing french shit" lol. and the best part was that he didnt realised that he said that. tsk tsk. the things you say and are oblivious.

We'll be having an exhibition debate tomorrow at Tampiness library. 6 of the participants were chosen to debate. Nicole s one of them. and just the same, to tell you the truth, jealousy creeped up. Not that i was angry, just that i couldnt understand why, when i stayed with debate all along, and nic left only to come back this year after much much coaxing from ME, go into competitions, get best speaker and then get chosen for exhibition debates. sometimes i wonder if it was ever a right choice that i made to beg her to come back to the debate circle with me.

next year would be the last time i'll get to debate with her. the main one definitely being JG'S. only then will i know if i have improved in my top 20 rankings in B div or whether Nic has overshadowed me. sigh.

Monday, December 05, 2005 Colossal Quiz1. Name: Samantha
2. Single or Taken: single and proud of it
3. Sex: guess it yourself
4. Birthday: 02081990 *huge hint*
5.Siblings: 2 younger tormenters
6. Hair Colour: black
7. Eye Colour: Black, tinged with brown
8. Shoe Size: 5 or 6
9. Height: 163cm. yes i know i'm short. u dun have to rub it in
10. Any tattoos or piercings: a pair at the ears
S p e c i f i c s
1. Do you do drugs?:like durh noo.
2. What kind of shampoo do you use?: Pantene
3. What are you most scared of?: certain creepy crawlies
4. Who is the last person that called you?: terence
5. Where do you want to get married?: at the beach somewhere in Maldives or Hawaii
6. How many buddies are online right now?: 22
7. What would you change about yourself?: my height and weight haha
F a v o r i t e (s)
1. Colour: bright colours
2. Food/Beverage: hmmm..
3. Boys names: Ryan
4. Girls names:Brittany, SAMANTHA (:
5. Subjects in school?: Geography, PE!
6. Animals: Dogs
7. Sports: Basketball [ohh yeah] plenty actually.
H a v e y o u e v e r ?
1. Given anyone a bath?: nope
2. Smoked?: nope and i dont intend to
3. Bungee jumped?: never but i would love too *grins*
4. Made yourself throw up?: heh. why would i
5. Skinny dipped?: nahh
6. Ever been in love?: i don't know when i'm in love seriously. cant tell if i crush or love.
7. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: i'm not that EVIL haha
8. Eaten a lemon in its entirety?: i'm not stupid
9. Run away from home?: nope. and dont intend to
10. Cried when someone died?: Yeah
11. Lied?: i am perfect aren't i?
12. Fallen for your best friend?: i didnt fall. i tripped.
13. Been rejected?: not yet
14. Rejected someone?: indirectly yes.
15. Used someone?: sort of
16. Done something you regret?: yeah definitely
C u r r e n t
Clothes: i dont want to let you know
Music: none
Make-up: None
Annoyance: none. im nice i dun get annoyed easily
Smell: Dove Shower Cream
Favourite Group: ermmm...
Desktop Picture: family pic excluding my mom in Phuket
Book you're reading: none
Colour of Toenails: glitter
L a s t p e r s o nYou touched: bro.
Hugged: ermmm. not sure
You instant messaged: Nathaniel
You yelled at: my bro
You kissed: cant remember
A r e y o u?
Open-minded: sorta
Arrogant: try not to
Insecure: nope. welll... in some things yes
Random: huh? no not really
Hungry: nope
Moody: nah
Organized: when i'm not at home yes. if not my room is worse than a pig sty. at camps. im yr perfect neat little girl.
Difficult: hu gets to decide? mom or me?
Attractive: erm. u be the judge
R A N D O M
In the morning I am: blur
Love is: not one that i have now from anyone :P
I dream about: shhh. dont disturb my dreams
O p p o s i t e s e x
What do you notice first: their looks
Makes you laugh the most: their crappy and totally lame jokes..tsk tsk those church guys haha D o y o u e v e rSit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: maybe
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: huh?! nooo.
Wish you were younger: nah
Cried because someone said something to you?: cant remember.
N u m b e r O f t i m e s IHad my heart broken: once or twice i think. blame my own foolishness
no. of hearts I have broken: ask the guys. not me
Of guys I've kissed: none.zilch.
no.Of continents I have lived in: 1
F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s
1. Do you like filling these out?: its ok
2. Gold or silver?: silver
3. What was the last movie you watched?: cant remember
4. Favourite cartoon/anime?: hmmm. i watch kiddy shows anytime.
5. What did you have for breakfast this morning?: bread?
6. Who would you love being locked in a room with?: its for me to know for u to find out
7. Could you live without your computer?: nope.
8. Would you colour your hair?: yeah.or more like streak it
9. Could you ever get off the computer?: durh.
10. Habla espanol?: ehh?
11. How many people are on your buddy list?:160
12. Drink Alcohol?: not really
13. Your name spelled backwards?: Ahtnamas
14. Where were your parents born?: mom indonesia, dad singapore
15. Have you ever moved?: yepp
16. What's your favourite place to go?: the beach
17. Is your bed Single, Double, Queen or King?: double
18. What's your favourite sport to play?:BASKETBALL
19. How many kids do you want?: 2-3?
20. Type of music you dislike most?: metal
21. Colour of your school bag?: army green with yellow
22. Do you have cable?: no
23. Favourite 80's song?: hahaha
24. Ever prank called anybody?: yeah
25. Ever get a parking ticket?: nope. but i tried driving before!
26. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: both i want to try
27. Furthest place you have ever been?: UK
28. Ever bowl a 300?: how i wish
29. What's your favourite comic strip?: haha baby blues haha
30. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?: nope
31. Bath or Shower?: shower
32. Best movie you've seen in the past month?: nil
33. Favourite pizza topping?: cheese and chilli
34. Beer or ale?: Neither
35. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: nah.i have better things to do
36. Do you eat skin on chicken?: who does? i dont
37. Apple or orange juice?: Orange
38. Favourite type of chocolate bar?: Milk chocolate
39. Your favourite fruit?: Apple, mango, orange
40. Your favourite vegetable?: lots
41. Have you ever won a trophy?:yeah
42. Are you a good cook?: i can survive on my own
43. Do you know how to pump your own gas?: i dont drive but i'll know how to do it :D
44. Bought something from an commercial?: should be
45. Is Oprah annoying or great?: seriously, i've never watched her shows before
46. Ever flex in front of a mirror?: nope. i'm not a body builder
47. Ever throw up in public?: in my moms fren's car yes haha
48. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?: love definitely
49. Do you believe in love at first sight?: yeah. that be one in a million for me
50. Ever call a 1-900 number?: yepp
51. Ever stood up a date?: never had a date. laugh for all i care
52. Biggest turn off of the opposite sex?: attitude, BO
53. Ever been cheated on?:yes
54. What are the names of all your pets dead and/or alive?: lots. for my uncountable past rabbits
55. Can ex's be friends?: yes. i'll want my exs to be my good frens

ITS FINALLY DONE! HAHA AT LEAST I WASTED TIME UNTIL THE NEXT TV SHOW THAT I'M PLANIG TO WATCH.

Monday, December 05, 2005 came back from bintan on saturday, but didnt bother to write an entry for it. only that i'm burnt. really really burnt. sigh. thats the way it is huh. give and take. oh wells.

freaking out for my juniors right now. it seems that they have to prepare 12 motions, both sides. rahh that adds up to 24 in total. how are they ging to do it. i dunno. but theres the seniors to help..haha not really. actually its onle me and nicole whos going down to school on thursday to help. rahh the rest either has church camp or overseas. and pissing over the money issue. Mrs S. said that the school will pay for the junior's workshop. But they called me to say that we are the only school that has not paid..rahhh i am soo angry with the school.

Have a busy week ahead. wed tuition, thursday whole day at sch with juniors, friday, saturday and sunday have debate workshop at RJC. may try to skip sunday one so that if the juniors get into the quarter and finals can go to support them. haha. and get to go to SF camp earlier. Oh man. i'm slowly receiving all 12 motions from Robyn... WTH. i am sooo angry with the organisers. totally and utterly ridiculous. rahhhhh..ANGRY.