It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Sunday, February 26, 2006 feel so good after exercising with the ah soo clan!!! you guys are great! haha. matthias, keith, terence, marcus and i went to maplewood park then met candice at the other basketball court later on to play bball. haha. so funny. matthis kept on trying to pass the ball through terence legs. it was successful but after a while after terence got fed up he closed his legs so had difficulty in bouncing through it haha. two boys wanted to play with us. soo cute. when matthis bounced the ball pass one of their legs he went 'must close legs must close legs!!!' hahaha. candice and i were amused by it. after that was suppose to chase the guys back to church but they ran too fast for us to keep up so we just jogged at our own pace haha.

hmmm next sat and sunday rather busy. have a dry run for the why you eat so much game on sat with the comm and grp leaders. then sunday theres sports day. something like that. just a time for sfers to play sports together. like bball and table tennis. oh speaking bout that marcus said he'll stick to soccer and table tennis as he had a problem of not being able to shoot into the net for bball ahahah. well at least he did get a ball in after listening to me. haha. always trust corner balls.

bahhh week days are over... just like that. another week of stress and lessons. everytime science lessons start i feel like falling asleep. it isnt something that i do on prupose but just...my brain just switches off. oh wells.

Friday, February 24, 2006 my feelings were acting up today. was high in school enjoyed the time spent with my friends and yet the feeling of dread continued to remain in me until the verdict was passed.

i tried. i did. i just couldnt understand their cases. i couldnt place my finger on it. i uttered rubbish. its all over. no more for me. cant break into quarters. the only hope left would be...

no one can understand whats going on inside me now. please dont try to say anything. it wont help. i just need some time to think through what i should do next.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006 have not blogged for a few days? been really busy. saturday: was spent slacking a little after the tests suppose to have tuition but miss ang had collage run. *wadever* then reading through physics textbook. did my homework and then went to play basketball with chew ezter they all. just realised that 1 hr of active running around is more than enough...as in exercise i mean but who can get enough of basketball right?

sunday: woke up at 8 to prepare for church. usually wake up at 8 30 but i had to go for the sf bbq meeting. found out that i was in the committee. HA. yeah but its kinda interesting though its still kinda vague to me as to what exactly we are suppose to do. but how can bbq-ing and a mega game go wrong right? RIGHT! hopefully vanessa moli they all can make it. anyway went out after that to get Ang Zi Qing's and Gracia's present. hole on...

PUBLIC APOLOGY: SORRY GRACIA FOR TOTALLY FORGETTING YOUR BIRTHDAY. I SERIOUSLY THOUGHT IT WAS IN MARCH. TRUST DESMOND TO REMIND US. TSK TSK, YES DESMOND I KNOW YOU'RE SMIRKING.

OK soooo....went to great world city...bought a shirt for gracia at zara...sun bian got one for myself hehehe. smart right. then went to royal sporting house...wanted to purchase reebok basketball shoes...rather nice red and white. but didnt dare to buy cause my dad kept on asking me. ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO BUY THIS PAIR? DONT ANYHOW BUY OK. IF NOT NICE DONT BUY. made me feel super uncertain and now im regretting. bahhh. heck. next time go to sports shop str away purchase the shoes.

monday: lesson per normal, surprisingly i understood differientiation although i didnt listen to miss wong in the previous 2 a math preiods. oh wells. thank God i suppose. stayed back for debate, ended up at tiff's house played with her oh-so-cute-cat, shared a chicken pie between the 3 of us. i.e. nic, tiff and I. got out a main rebuttal sheet that is to be shared between nic and I. HOPEFULLY. she's always taking my rebuttals when i tell it to her. *WAILS* MAKES ME PARANOID. BAHHH. haha. look nic how much you scare me.

oh then unity sec called to say they wanted to spar against us. they couldnt decided a suitable timing. they wanted wednesday but we are already expecting katong convent but we didnt tell them obviously, said tuesday they said it was too soon as they did not have their case up yet. thursday they said ok only to call back and say that they had lessons till 4 plus so could we go over to their school. checked up as to where exactly was their sch... CHOA CHU KANG. hahaha. immediately told nic to decline their invitation haha.

today is the only free day i have. ended lessons at 1 10 so was slacking and waiting for the bell to go. walked out of the sch at 1 40 haha super early. zoey and i felt good that we were the only ones at the bus stop but then... THE BUSES AT THE BACKGATE SUCKS. waited 20mins for 317 and by that time everybody else were also at the bus stop. so no difference. next time go out of sch at 1 30 haha. slacked, read the newpaper oblivious to what was going to happen next. the doorbell rang and my guitar teacher was standing there. i stared at him weirdly like why the hell are u here on my free day then it hit me. SHIT I WAS SUPPOSE TO HAVE LESSONS WITH HIM...and i hadnt showered. hehe. after that showered, slept until 7. re freshed. planning to practice a math for thursday's common test.

Friday, February 17, 2006 motion out. against fairfield methodist. this motion is actually for us. as in the motion is to our advantage. yes thats it. its easier to prove although we do have a lot of stuff to clarify. hopefully anirah would be able to get it across to the adjudicators.

chem test today. average i guess. most probably can pass. HOPEFULLY. yes.

ANG ZIQING'S birthday. haha she super sulky the whole day and so i had to sit next to a sulky person one whole day. wanted to punch her haha. but very funny. so childish and she is 16. haha. and the people at the movie theatre refused to let her purchase FEARLESS movie tickets. hehe. in the end we celebrate her birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG ZI QING!!! GROW UP!!! HOHOS.

was looking at the cliques in my class... most of them come from A2'04. they were lucky enough that either their whole group or most of them are in the same class. but me...the whole clique spread over the whole level. =(((( celebration of birthdays is non existant now. so much for me having close friends to celebrate my birthday with.

Thursday, February 16, 2006 tired today. actually you cant say that i was tired cause i still had energy but just that during class time, especially during science classes i doze off. and i mean shut down. blank. it may seem as if i am listening but im sleeping with my eyes open. or i have to resort to covering my eyes with my fringe haha.

i cant stand science. how badd can it get? and i have to live with it for another year. bahhh. never mind. after that its bye bye to science!!! uh huh. no more freaking science. and tomorrow i have chemistry common test. *groans*

came back read newspaper then slept. was intending to sleep for only 1 hr but i think my alarm didnt sound or it did but i slam it down. so i slept until 6. hehe. feels guilty. oh wells. rest is important for an active girl like me right? *nods head*

debate tomorrow. will get the motion and the school we are against. thinking about it makes my hands go clammy and this uncertain feeling around me. ever since the lost of the first round my confidence has shot down *woosh* all the way. level of 2 out of 10. damn it. quarter finals....2 consecutive rounds to win. bahh.

finally gave others my valentine's day girt to them. how nice of me right?! *smiles* slacked in class. was dreaming about after common tests what should we do. haha then zoey say go town. got me all excited. yay towning. hahaha. has been a uber long time since i went to town. but now...STUPID CHEM.


Wednesday, February 15, 2006 had the stupid chinese compo lesson again today. plain waste of time. was messaging terence all the way through and eating the gummy bears that ppl gave me as Valentines day gifts hehe. but managed to finish on time due to the pressure given by the stupid teacher. after that played bball with Moli and convinced vanessa and valerie to play with us for 11 balls then go home to study haha. so we did. they went home after that moli and i played until my mom called. moli was training me to do three pointers haha cause i cant even hit the board for nuts. so she is my shi fu for three pointers hahaha.. MOLI BE HONOURED THAT I CALL U SHI FU. NOT EVERYDAY THAT I ASK SOMEBODY TO TRAIN ME HAHA. yepp

suppose to be studying for geog tmr and chem on friday but dun feel like doing it now. later than do. dumdeedumdumdum. im slacking like shit.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006 went to watch movie. most of the people in the cinema were PL lites haha. saw huang biren. super tall. hmm cried until my eyes were swollen. so embarassing. hehe. heck but it was a nice show. no time to blog about the theme now.

ate lunch at pasta mania. wheee. nice outing haha.

i need to mug for the tests but i cant concentrate. damn

Monday, February 13, 2006 NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!! OH YEAH OH YEAH. im going to watch i not stupid too. yay!!! i rock haha. ok thats soo random. anyways tomorrow go and watch in the morning then rush home to study and have guitar lesson hahaha. yay!

Sunday, February 12, 2006 it seems that i cant shake of the feeling of tiredness no matter how much i sleep. isnt 8 hrs a day enough? but why does my eyes seem to have weights on them, pulling them shut. bahhh.

had church today. woke up late at 8 30 when i was suppose to meet joyce and deborah for bible study. what with the young adults holding their service at 11 now, we'll have difficulty in meeting up with Joyce. so mah fan. after bs went up for sf service and as i expected, we were late. they already started worship. but nevermind.

this whole year we'll be studying the book of Romans and today's lesson was interesting. It allowed us to see clearer what is happening to the world now, how corrupted and morally sinful. How people and countries are open to homosexuals and are even allowing marriage for these people. practically the whole of europe has already made it lawful for homos to wed each other. how preverse can this world get. sigh.

we always have to keep our eyes on Jesus in times like these, to hold on to him and look to Him for the correct direction.

after service went for early lunch, spent 2 hrs at the coffee shop before heading back to church for the teaching of the holy spirit. I cant say that it enlightened me much, considering the fact that I am exposed to it due to my mom and her line of work. But i supose it helped to clear some doubts for some other sfers which is good.

Zhi Zhen just told me that i would be in charge of prayer for the upcoming sf bbq and thinking about that and all the other responsibilities that i am starting to have this year in church, i tend to forget that my main aim of being here on this earth is to worship God and to love Him. It isnt about how much i serve in the ministry and not how much time i commit to church or wadsoever but more of me spending time alone with the Lord and growing closer to Him. I must confess that i am guilty of not spending enough time with Him and tend to ignore Him when i am busy. But all the more, i have to remember that even in my busiest of times, i have to commit myself and my day to the Lord and see what he has in store for me. Talking to the others in SF, it has made me realised that i m blessed to have grown up in this church, but sooner or later leave it to find another church where i will grow more spiritually. But not any time soon.

The JC1s got their results. quite a few of them did brilliently. Denise, Darel, Rebecca got 6 points, Amy 7 and so on so on. thats another thing that we have to give thanks for.

Hearing about their results and whether they are planning to stay in the Jc they are already in pn changing to Poly, cause me to think if i was ready for O's this year. Common test for term 1 is just this week and im not even ready yet. Im not even sure if i want to go to Poly or Jc and whether i CAN get the results that i want. yes good grades does come with HARD work and yes i have to study really hard this year, but once again most importantly, i have to commit alll the troubles and uncertainties to God and see what he has in store for me. SIGHHH. why do we have to make so many decisions in life? bahh.

School starting tomorrow. week 7. my how fast the term passes. very soon i would be mugging for mid year exam already. mug mug mug this year. and im going to enjoy it =))))

Saturday, February 11, 2006 ok i'll put it simply. we lost. yes im disappointed, yes i know we have to win the next two debates to get into the quarter finals and yes we have to improve in our team linkage and support. if we dont win the next two debate...im gonna cry. and nic say she'll cry with me. if we dont get into the quarters we HAVE to get into the top 20 and not top 20 only but top 10. yes i know that i sound extremely gung-ho but having been in JG's for 3 years... you know what i mean. sighhhh. i may not be crying now. but wait till next debate round.

went for aunty lily's wedding today at oriental hotel. it was a small affair ard 100 guests in a room. it was high tea. our family sat with another family namely the Goh family haha. there was a Rachel there, my age. talked to her and she knew what she wanted to do already. mass comm in ngee ann poly. at least she has a goal already. unlike me. fickle minded me. bahhh. Lord Show me Where to go Lord.

Aunty Lily is going to Australia to live...i know i havent spent much time with her ever since i stepped into secondary sch. but still i guess i'll miss her.

ok im getting all soppy and depressing.on to a lighter note, im free next tuesday! who wants to go out in the afternoon?! its valentines day and i dont have school yay!!! haha. but i have to mugg in the morning for the common tests. uh huh. but anyone who wants to go out message me k? haha.

we must win. we really really must. its the last year for me. i have to get somewhere. pls pls pls. let me get into the quarter finals. and semis. cries. im soo worried.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006 just came back from school. super tired. my eyes are so heavy and i cant think straight. had prefects installation today and some of us volunteered to be ushers. it basically slacking away under the sun while waiting for people to come by the back gate. YES BACK GATE. hardly anyone came from there except for 3 cars?! uh huh. then we served the food as well cause we wanted to eat after that wahahaha. smart aye?! free food! uh huh. and we sneaked up some for the rest haha, the looks on their faces...undescribe-able. as if they never saw food before. especially CHUA. she went straight for the drumstick. cheapo. haha. and guess wad. they left the leftovers of the drumstick on my table. sigh. to have friends like this. tsk tsk.

after that had frigging chinese zuo wen that is totally a waste of time. i was falling asleep when the person in charge just had to walk in and wake me up by saying. (translated) little grils wake up dont sleep ok be good girls. OMG like who calls us LITTLE girls now other than the uncle at a typical hawker? woke me up from my beauty sleep.

straight after that was debate and boy was i tired. my brain was mushy and i couldnt think at all. everything nic was asking me i went HUH?! super bad state today. and yes i MESSED UP TOTALLY. it sooo totally. super embarassing and de moralising to me. i blanked out when i was talking and even before blanking out i was talking jibberish. looking at mrs ong's face it was obvious that she had no clues as to what i was talking about and Elizabeth (tiffany's friend) was not writing down which meant i was talking nonsense cause she didnt have to write down stuff. bahhh. this sucks. but i suppose its always better to malu yrself in front of ppl you know rather than ppl you dont know.

IM TIRED

Tuesday, February 07, 2006 so tired. have a headache. tmr stay back for shitty chinese compo. i rather spend the whole afternoon prepping for debate.damn.

not in the mood to blog right now. i only have a craving for basketball now. AND I MEAN NOW.

bahhh. my dribbling sucks

Monday, February 06, 2006 ahhhh just woke up from a nap. felt so tired after running yesterday night.

candice, desmond, terence, marcus, gervais, keith and I decided to run from our house all the way to heartland mall while making two rounds at each park we saw. btw candice and I were the only girls and poor thing us we had to keep up with the pace of the guys. so we started but us [girls] decided not to run the two rounds so while the guys did we waited for them and did stretches haha. other than that i can proudly say that we were able to keep up with them :))))))

cool down outside heartland mall the exit near KFC then played catching at 231 and once again we girls were it. caught the guys after 10-15 mins? uh huh. walked back slowly stopping at maple park to allow them to show off their pull ups to each other haha. i can say that only marcus did well. started drizzling so we headed home but kept on stopping on the way haha. ended up at coco mama shop. i still cannot believe that they can chug down two bottle of h2o or wadever drink within seconds. like glug glug glug finish. and they tell me TWO BOTTLE ONLY WADD. ok for that i admire them hahaha.

today lessons....slack. but miss ferng made me set my target for chinese as b3 for term one. a bit ridiculous considering the fact that i have been getting C's for the past 2 years. oh wells. i'll just work hard and leave the rest to the Lord.

i dont know what to do for the debate preparations....really it seems as if a certain somebody doesnt care about meeting up and preping for JG's. Pray that she has some sense to see that its necessary that we meet up on thursday. if i dont see her tomorrow we'll just take her out then as put her as reserve. lets see how it works out.

Friday, February 03, 2006 ok finally the suspense is over and the draws are out. we're against temasek academy (what sch is that?) with the motion THBT ONLY NATIVE BORN CITIZENS SHOULD BE ALLOWED TO REPRESENT THEIR COUNTRY IN INTERNATIONAL SPORTS. we're prop.

so the whole debate grp prep-ed today and brain stormed until we couldnt think of anything else. sometimes i wonder. are the juniors really interested in debating? some of them give me this "oh i dun care. oh i cant do. oh i don't know" attitude and face. i mean if you want to debate then you go forward and write and talk what you think in front of everybody and not in your own circle. I can understand if you're new but if not there's no reason why they should be behaving in this manner with this kind of attitude. if it goes on.. they wont be going for U14s.

another thought crossed my mind as well while i was waiting for my mom to pick me up from school at around 6 45. I think only Singapore students have this 'special previlage' to stay in school from 7am to 5 or 6pm. i mean really what kind of life are we leading then? and most of the time we have tuition after school as well and so it seems as if our life revolves round education and school.

yes i know that its important but why go to this extent of taxing us students till the brim. sometimes i wonder. has the gov or moe in this case ever thought or maybe even tried out and see what exactly we do in sch for a full 10 hrs? sit in class, listen to our teachers rambling on and on then a break for HALF an hour back to the four walls of class then stay back for enrichment or cca or the school will find something to put into our already pack timetable. until around 4 plus 5 only then can we head home and even so it takes us maybe 1/2 an hour or more to reach home?

considering this i think visitors from overseas will freak when they experience our education system. een more so if we have exchange programmes. oh yes i forgot. the school will make sure they dun work themselves up as they do to us.

the forum in the newspaper has been filled with parents complaining abt how early their poor little children has to wake up in the wee hours of the morning to go to sch. not that i disagree but i suppose we have to accept it. even so it really is too much for students to take. both the stress that parents, school and country gives.

Thursday, February 02, 2006 one word to describe today's school. B-O-R-I-N-G. my freaking ass was practically rotting on my seat today, listening to each teacher, one by one they came and left. some more my partner never come so my mouth never work so hard. never talk then pain. bahhh. e

verybody was pia-ing for tomorrow's chinese test. i find it funny. ok but i wun bother explaining.

ended class at 2 45pm. on my handphone and first message i received was HEY NO DEBATE TODAY. made me freaking madd. like WHATT???? thankfully the rest heard bout no debate so i didnt have to go round scouting for them.

ok. im boreddd. i have to study for chinese test tmr, do my a math homework which im not going to do cause i have no clue as to what combination is about. i soo totally did not listen to my a math teacher cause she was making me confuse so im waiting to see my tuition teacher.

ohh mann i so cant wait for Julia Gabriel's. tomorrow the motion will be released and we'll know who we are up against. wheeeee.

i may not seem like a debater. but just you wait.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006 oh mann. i'm like... arghhhh. let me relate the whole timeline competition. went there at around 3 30. waited for half an hour until we could go into the lecture theatre. the supposedly chairman of the whole competition was speaking in a voice that i would not have guessed would come from a debate or current affairs person.

opened up the quiz booklet and the questions stumped me. really. some of them were grammatically wrong, or the dates in the mcq were entirely wrong or they gave questions that i dont give a damn about.

examples:
when did the bukit ho swee fire broke out? uh huh.
Paya Labar. interesting to have our school called Paya Labar huh?
or when is Tiger Woods Birthday? Who the hell knows man?! like what the... its just as good as saying When is Samantha See's birthday?
How many stories did the macdonald building have? anybody that knows pls tell me.
Who invented the car? Who cares as long as i HAVE a car.
When did Singapore join the United Nations? now that freaking confused me. cause i KNEW it was 1965. But the 4 choices that they gave was all in the 1950's. like HUH?!!!
When is Lee Kwan Yew's Birthday? go ask him.
When was Raffles born? ....
When was the First WTO?
Which is the biggest city is Madagascar?

wahhhhh. anybody that can answer all this qns pls tell me. thank you.

Saw Priscilla Su at the 'competition' also. her team got into the finals. so did our Junior team. All the way PL!!! At least now i can concentrate on JG's.

today's chem class was exasperating. not the lesson i mean. the people behind me. *laughs* wan ling whispered to me. 'Sam. You know how to play black magic?' i was like huh?! in my mind i was thinking BLACK MAGIC? ITS WITCHCRAFT!!! ahaha... so zoey and wan ling did it during chem, social studies and after school others were doing it to me while i was trying to figure out how exactly did they do it. other than that a lot of lame stuff also came up which is not worth typing down hahaha.

the debate trainings are in a mess. hopefully SOME people will turn up tmr and most probably we'll receive the JG's motion tmr at 4 as well. ahhh!i want to know who we are up against.

bleh chinese test to piaaa for. oh wells