It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Saturday, April 29, 2006 I sort of kinda happen to realise this, but quite a lot of people come to me to just share their unhappiness and stuff like that. Not that im pleased with it or what but just something that i suddenly realised when another person told me something. it isnt always easy to keep things to yourself but yes when you think of the trust that the person has given to you... yeah. maybe i should start considering a career of counselling or psychiatrist or something heh.

on a lighter note its the WEEKEND!!! and monday is a holiday. yay. but its studying and studying for common test. awwww. nvm. its still holiday. and 9 of may is a holiday as well!! cause our school is a polling station for the GE on sat so teachers have to work then. how cool is that huh!? haha.

church tomorrow. leading offering. was just telling someone i dont think i should continue doing it cause it seems like i dont have that thing for offering. its not that im scared or anything, thats hardly any of my fears but its just that i dont have the passion for it compared to serving God with me playing the guitar. not everybody is cut out for everything, we each have our area and so i guess mine is serving God with music.

ok its back to studying geog. agriculture. how sucky is human geog? very.

Friday, April 28, 2006 well done PL BAND GIRLS!! you did great! you made PL proud =) you played brilliantly!

just came back from pl band concert with moli and moli mei. it was good. haha could see everybody giving flowers to the girls. so sweet. including me though i didnt have time to buy nice one but gave celeste a small one. im still high. haha

yay the week is over. lit test is over! only have english, geog, chem and physics left. phew. then its exams. ok surprisingly exams dont scare me. well maybe cause now im focusing on common test. heh.

ugh tmr tuition at 8 30 then stupid mentoring workshop at 11 till 2. waste of time. sigh. heck. i shall enjoy myself. yepp =)))

i really really miss sec 2 life =((( hui zi, bre, celeste, xiu, mich ng.

Thursday, April 27, 2006 A math test is finally over. last test for the week Literature. nothing to study for that since its an unseen prose thus im slacking today, surfing the net, looking at the pictures that others post on their website. totally slack day.

Im missing basketball. havent played for super long, hopefully tomorrow after lit test can play till school is over. hopefully hopefully.

are the friends you have really seem who they are?
will they be there for you when you really need them
or will they run?
are the friends that you have continue to smile and laugh with you when you're down
or will they say i'm busy and ignore?
will those friends pat you on the back and say it's okay when you cry
or will they just look and then turn away?
are they truly your friends or are they JUST friends?

Tuesday, April 25, 2006 finally both mid year science practicals are over. at least for now i can concentrate on the upcoming a math test and common tests. im not going to dwell on what happen today, just that we had 3 tests/exams today. after that jelly, vanessa and I went to the bubble tea shop. jelly treated me to a oreo peppermint plus pearl drink =)))). jelly you are nice. but actually she treated me cause i was going home with her. haha.

ok back to mugging. more like practicing for a math.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006 24/04/2006

wishlist
1) drum lessons
2) billabong/quicksilver handphone strap
3) loose weight- i feel fat
4) improve basketball skills
5) focus on studying
6) poly? integrated events management? jc?
7) discipline in practicing my guitar
8) more shirts
9) nike cap/visor
10) growing relationship in the Lord
11) 13 pts for mid years
12) adidas jacket
13) more time to play bball
14) get well from whatever sickness i have now
15) get through the freaking test and exam filled week.

chem prac today. didnt write anything for a 5 marks qns cause i had NO clue as to what to write. and i wrote sulphate not sulphate IONS. and i included ammonia gas is liberated when im not suppose to cause its a DURH that ammonia gas is liberated when i add aqueous ammonia into the stupid solution. ok no point dwelling on it though.

tomorrow physics prac. not intending to study cause theres nothing to study?! chinese test also. AM TRYING TO GET THE WORDS INTO MY HEAD BUT I CANT MEMORISE THEM!!! arghhh. come on week pass faster please. thank you.

i love coach carter. so encouraging. if only there was such a person. but thats only in lala land that you'll find this kind of coach or teacher. but i learnt this from the show... heh

THEY PLAY OUR GAME!
I CAME TO COACH BOYS, THEY BECAME MEN. i think thats so nice.

oh wells count down AGAIN
35 days till chinese O's
0 days till mid year science practical exams
21 days till mid year language, math, a math and social studies papers
93 days till mid year sciences and humans papers

Sunday, April 23, 2006 Is there hope? yes there is. only that i dont see it yet but i know He will be the hope that i need.

Lord. take this as a personal prayer from me. help me Lord. i need your wisdom, your strength and your guidence to continue my life. things arent going the way i want it to be right now but i know that you have a plan for me. As nicole said Lord, you were the one that decided our rankings though we thought we had it all. Please show us why you did it and why is it so. I KNOW you have a plan but i just DONT GET IT RIGHT NOW. open my eyes and my heart Lord cause i want to see you. Help me for my science pracs this coming monday and tuesday. I know i have not been working hard especially for my chem prac but i ask Lord that you'll help me to understand all the calculations and conclusions necessary for both VA and QA. Help me to know which tests to use and to know what calculations to apply for mole and molar mass. I pray that you will also guide me in physics prac Father that i'll be careful in using the right units and in the drawing of graph. Lord, help me to grow in you as well, that i may see the goodness and love that you want to pour out on me. give me the concentration that i need badly to be able to study and help me understand and know how to apply my a math work into use especially for differentiation. I NEED YOU LORD. HELPPP. TAKE THIS AS MY CRY TO YOU. AS A PLEA. SHOW ME YOUR LOVE LORD CAUSE I KNOW THAT YOU ARE HERE.

Saturday, April 22, 2006 long day yesterday. first had 2.4 run. timing was okay but not that great. 14 35. ugh. i could have done better. after that rushed home to shower cause i was extremely sweaty and didnt want to last that way till 10 at night. thankfully dad was at home so he fetched me to and fro from school. came back for cca. last session so we slacked. laughed a lot while writing notes for ld-ians. after that rushed with the juniors to heartland for dinner before rushing off again to get karen from the bus stop at SRJC. went for the JG finals. sat throughout the whole thing but i had to leave whn they were announcing the top twenty. if not.... boy am i greatful for nicole. sighhh. at least she was there when i called her. ok Temasek acad won. yeah. after that left took the bus to kovan walked to 53 bus stop. i needed the walk. just to sort things out by myself. sighh. Terence picked me up from the bus stop. kinda crap all the way home but i wasnt in the mood to.

its a pasted smile you know. behind it lies sadness and disappointment.



Thursday, April 20, 2006 save enviroment day today so our school just had to take part in it. what did they make us do? no fans nor aircon from 8 till 11. everybody was fanning themselves due to the heat and stuffiness.tsktsk. well it did result in some funny antics though. miss wong and lao pom hahaha. and yee ling as well. but its normal. heh.

today's periods were killer. all double periods except chem so everybody was brain tired.i have physics everyday except for monday. ughhh. of all things PHYSCIS. got back my frigging chem 'quiz' which was 40 marks and i scored a BRILLIANT 22. wow. i studied you know. pfftt. shitty equations. wrote the charges all wrongly.

tomorrow is the last cca session. its a relief to finally get over with it and at least i can focus on my studies but i suppose i would miss the trainings. well debate has been part of my life... but i guess im just not cut out for it really. no more debates in tertiary level. except for viewing them. yes. sports for me.

no basketball till mid year exams are done. or so i should think. i'll just have to resort to bouncing against the classroom wall =). my life is pretty in a mess right now. i cant think straight, cant sort out my subjects properly, and im not anywyhere near a B3 for chinese O's. its freaking me out. gahhh. and i cant put any songs into my stupid handphone cause the memory card is acting up. only 2 songs. idiot.

things arent looking up for me. *shakes head*
im missing my sec 2 life

Tuesday, April 18, 2006 i still have yet to comprehend why. i thought we did our best, but obviously we didnt.

hearing that made me make my decision. i'm cutting off all ties with it after my secondary school life.

i guess i'm not cut out for it. i never was. i was just another disillusioned person who thought she could debate. well evidently i was wrong.

somebody hit me pls. i'm a good for nthing debater and i was blind to see it.

how DUMB. yes. stupid.

i guess its better to throw yourself against the wall than to know the truth sometimes. and that time is now. (taken from nicole)

well nic. what can i say. adios debate life.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006 the tears cant stop falling... when i heard the news... cries.

Monday, April 17, 2006 ughh napfa today. 31 sit ups, 167cm standing broad jump, 48cm sit and reach, 15 incline pull ups, 11.04 shuttle run. yepp. got my gold. so quite satisfied. uh huh. but no energy to study now. oh wells

had 2 hours and 20 minutes of free period today cause miss ferng didnt come haha. yes i know you're envious too bad for you then. *shrugs*. at least i was hardworking k. did physics tys. ok fine then after that i slacked... but you cant blame me right?!

got new phone. the model isnt exactly new though. 3230. better than nothing. yupp... thanks dad

basketball im missing you...
accidently in love :)))))

life is getting complicated -=more like the relationships in it=-
oh how much i'll give to have a happy life

Sunday, April 16, 2006 mmmm. west side story is not too bad, but mama-mia is still better. this one was more dry and less comical. and with a sad ending where you see a lover's body being carried off. awwww.

anyways no more fun stuff for me now. have to get down to work. study study study thats what i'll be living for this week at least. physics quiz, social studies test, chemistry, geography and physics common test the following week. after that gear up for mid years. ok lets have the count down again. hahaha.

43 days till chinese O's
18 days till mid year science practical exams
29 days till mid year language, math, a math and social studies papers
71 days till mid year sciences and humans papers

oh crap. i didnt realise how little i have till the first part of my mid year exams. CRAPP. wahhhhh. okok chill and get down to business.

its time guys. run the last lap together till the end.

Saturday, April 15, 2006 good game good game. played basketball for 2 hrs at maplewood park today with ester glyn angela and chew. rather fun except that i kept getting hit by the ball on my nose and face haha. my nose was super itchy after that. *rubss*

wads their freaking problem man. anyhow think. im straight ok. -_-""

yay yay yay tomorrow going to watch west side story at esplanade!!! hahaha. cant wait. been a long time since i've watch a musical.

sigh but of course there's studying to do like nowww. sighh.

Friday, April 14, 2006 RAIN YOU SUCK! I HATE RAIN! WHY MUST IT RAIN WHEN I WANT TO GO AND PLAY BASKETBALL?! STUPID THUNDER JUST HAD TO MAKE YOUR ROLLING ALSO.

Come onnn.. stop pleasee. bahhh.

im not in a very good mood right now.

Thursday, April 13, 2006 im darn bored so decided to kop carian's quiz thingy and do it.

1. HOW DID YOU GET YOUR SCARS?
err various reasons?

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
notices, posters, pictures...

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOKLIKE?
that it survived a war and came out alive but rather hurt.

4. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
anything as long as i know its from the heart from my friends.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
no i dont and i dont care as long as i know which day so that you all can give me my presents. uh huh

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
some freaking person to call me and talk to me cause im DARN bored. bahhh.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
my clique

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
that. i dont know. shrugs. plentiful.

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
my stuff dog on my bedddd. =))))

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
NOPE.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
NOPEE. well..i dont know. heh

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE /PERFUME?
the body shop white musk and adidas!!!

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX
anything that looks good on that person

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEINGPROPOSED TO AT
somewhere nice and quiet thats all. i dont know. let the guy decide. heh

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
both

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
cheese and pepperoni!

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW,WHAT WOULD IT BE?
i dont want to. im fat.

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD.
i dunno. if i did that person didnt tell me. but apparently people like me thus i dont make people mad. smiles*

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
is chinese counted?

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
mmmm....cant remember.. flowers?

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
NOPE. i dont lead a channel 8 drama serial life.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
never tried so i dont know.. i'll probably scare that person off. hehehe.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED
10!!!! yes 10 is a nice number

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
myself. black hair

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
ermm. my mom's hp.? haha

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
people whining about their woes and depressions and how sucky life is for them.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
sccumbing to bball. heh.

36. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
in a hospital DUDE.

37. FIRST JOB?
ermm. teaching my siblings how to dance? haha

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
yupp yupp

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOUFILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
flipping through the tv channels walking around the house listlessly.

40.IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERYWHAT WOULD IT BE?
i wont. smile* i love myself

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
read the top.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTEDABOUT MOST?
how thin my legs are? hahaha. its true.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOLBECAME ILLEGAL?
shrug and say so wad? i dont drink.

44. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
anything on my computer

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
???? i still have a long way ahead ya know

46. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELLPHONE?
dont know and not intending to go and count right now. maybe later.

47. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
when i need to yes.

Thursday, April 13, 2006 im in the weekend mode
im in the weekend mode
i cant think cause im in the weekend mode

created by: chua yee ling

the best truth she has ever said. =))))

yay holidayy tomorrow. but have tuition at 8am. bleh. nvm.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006 wishlist

1) drum lessons
2) billabong/quicksilver handphone strap
3) loose weight- i feel fat
4) improve basketball skills
5) focus on studying
6) poly? integrated events management?
jc?
7) discipline in practicing my guitar
8) more shirts
9) nike cap/visor
10) growing relationship in the Lord
11) 13 pts for mid years
12) adidas jacket

oh darn. i should stop wishing and get on with my life.

my finger is injured. bahhh. zuo wen you are not my friend but i shall learn to love you. *pathetic smile*

happy early good friday everyone.

its the last day of school tmr and im going to slack tmr.

Monday, April 10, 2006 LETS GET OVER AND DONE WITH IT.

I'M GETTING SICK OF CHINESE.

and im getting sick of you.

49 days till chinese O's
14 days till mid year science practical exams
35 days till mid year language, math, a math and social studies papers
77 days till mid year sciences and humans papers
forever till freedom.

Integrated Events Management here i come-Republic Poly

Sunday, April 09, 2006 church today. =) conducted worship for the children. they didnt sing until i said: hey why are you all not singing? we're here to praise the Lord." only then did they started opening their mouths haha. it was okay i guess. not good neither not too bad. yeah. though as andrew said, certain songs were too high. heh.

Republic Poly is so darn far. woodlands. sigh. cant imagine waking up everyday to travel all the way to woodlands. Lord show me the way you want me to go. PLEASE. i need directions.

i wanna go for the overnight hike. =((((( i shall try asking my parents again. see the sunrise at the esplanade! pray that they'll agree k.

not a sign of greeting. when i smile at you you're not looking. what are you trying to do to me? smses...you send one, i reply and then you dont reply after that... i dont understand you. =((

Saturday, April 08, 2006 mmm my pizza's cooking. yay. have been craving for pizza these past few days. heh. blame it on Pizza Hut's continuous persistance in placing their coupons in our newspaper daily.

went to watch the semis yesterday at bishan park secondary. Creasent against VJCIP. VJ won, sadly on Creasent's part. yeah. I know they have been trying for years to move up to the finals but tried in vain. a pity. they really have the potential. Never mind Creasent, work hard and pull it off next year. smiles*

Lucas adjucated that debate. Could tell from his expression that it didnt go that well. But i wont disagree on that though. there wasnt much clash...though why give best speaker to 3rd opp? oh wells.

after that went to J8 for dinner and window shopped a little. was trying to find the sunglasses that gracia has. bought SOMETHING like that for $10. and earrings for $3.90. heh.

went to tricia's house talked to her about the sec 1 camp and the girls haha. i think its so fun to be a facilitator! and you get paid. anybody wants to hire me next year? haha.

going for denise's drama production later. The Tempest. yes a Shakespeare play. 3 hrs long till 11pm. i have an extra ticket. anybody wants to go? call me pls, though i doubt anybody would read this till after the show. oh wells. its $25 bucks by the way.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006 STINKY SHIT. stepped down from the bus and woosh must go and rain on us. wah lao eh. before that went to INCENERATION PLANT ughhh. another STINKY crap. but was kinda cool. able to see all your garbage disposed, burnt and i dunno what.

why the sudden smses to me? why dig it up all over again? then stop suddenly without telling me. sigh. you confusing thing.

Monday, April 03, 2006 UGHHH. just woke up from an hour of sleep. before that...rather eventful...R-A-T-H-E-R.

was suppose to play basketball at serangoon central but since moli couldnt make it so we played in school instead. rather dead...didnt managed to practice shooting properly but nvm.

after that went to serangoon garden centre to eat lunch. stupid family keep on looking at zoey and me. ppfftt. i know we pretty but no need to look until like that. heh. zoey and i dared each other at the same time to flip up our skirt and pull down our blouse.heh. so funny. SEE. GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE.

ZOEY: uh i think we should go home before it starts to rain
SAM: yeahhh we should. ok lets go
walk walk walk. step out of the shelter of the hawker centre...
splat..splat.
SAM: crapp. its raining.
ZOEY: no. its DRIZZLING.
uh wadever? hahaha

yeah so by the time we were at the bus stop with was raining like CRAZY. going off the bus already get wet. then other buses just had to splash me with road water. BEST. before can get into mom's car... also get wet. but i doubt as wet as Shalinda heh.

Sunday, April 02, 2006 jogging to junction 8! yeah. was rather cool. though the guys ran like uber fast. we walked then decided to split cause the guys wanted to run the long way but candice and i decided to take the shorter route. uh huh. was better to jog than run. like gosh run. cant but can jog. had stiches along the way though, so candice sort of half walked and talked and jogged at the same time. heh. we saw this house. UBER COOL. had its own swimming pool and i mean SWIMMING POOL not wading or jacuzzi pool. SWIMMING POOL. we we re trying to see inside haha then saaw someone painting. sooo nice!

so met the guys at macs j8, bought bubble tea then took 58 home. heh. everyone was stinky and sticky and gross. ugh. tired but funn. lazy desmond and terence didnt want to come. haha.

church later at 4 then pot luck dinner. lets see how successful Jonathan's, Samuel's and Danny's fried mars bars are later. mmhmmm.