Sunday, May 20, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Have i told you how much i love to go to the airport and watch the planes fly? Though the viewing gallery isnt what i'd call the best, yet its therapeutic. Like how when i was there on friday just spending time alone by myself and with God, looking up every now and then to see a plane land or take off, watching little kids toddle here and there, enjoying the quietness. and how on saturday whilst i was kayaking at changi beach and every 10 minutes there'll be a plane in the sky. First a Singapore Airline, next a Qantas and following that a Fed Ex plane. Shouting "BYE!" to each plane helped in releasing my frustrations. I dont know why but i've never liked the thought of flying off to a country and having to return back again to Singapore and how i wish reallll hard that im on one of those planes flying off to Neverland. It'll get me upset and disappointed, as if reality has caught up with me again and i cant run away from the system and bondage that a Singaporean has to their country. I'll be thinking, 'oh no. here im back again. spot 1. and here i have to start over again'.
I dont know. Maybe its just me. Maybe its cause right now i'm still struggling to fnd a place in my class. Still looking for a friend whom i can call FRIEND. Not just anyone but yea, someone like Dora or Gracia.
I'm loving canoe and the team. I'd exchange any projects for an additional training. Dang Sam, you've gotta learn how to multi task with both school and canoe. Trainings on wed, thurs and sat. Tuesdays are out for me since i end at 6.
Right. Now i have 3 dating books, 3 prayer books, 5 projects waiting for me to either be read or be completed. and Crap, i just realise that i have not printed out my lecture notes and tutorial notes for the week. rahhhh. Somebody help. Everything's getting me frustrated so easily these few days. and to top it off gracia just asked me to go shopping with hui shi and her next sunday.
AS IF i can. Rehearsals as per usual and more projects to complete. i! concert is starting to give me a lot of unnecessary problems. First it was suppose to be in April. Then it was postponed to end June. Not much of a problem there. But now having it on the 11 of August, with no 2nd i/c, no PA crew, no family meetings to find out whats going on for the other comms, a set up time of 45mins, band members and vocalists going overseas during the hols, arrangers not being able to make it on sundays and no time for myself to sit down and write the much needed testimonial for the song that i wrote its getting a little too distractive for me from my school. Further more, now its kind of eating into my study time as well. Not that I dont want to plan this whole thingbut really, its not only affecting me but the rest as well. Oh well, Lord remind me again that it's you whos doing the work and i'm only your vessel.
and p.s. Lord, can you send me an airplane?
