It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Friday, June 29, 2007 boo. i've been really down and emo the past few days and i dont know why. why why tell me why? even up till now i feel as if i've just been stampede on by a herd of bulls or cows or horses or what nots. No matter how much i sleep i still wake up feeling reaaal tired and it makes me grumpy and stone. and now as i type the stupid laptop is making funny noises. oh just great.

1 project down, 5 more to go!
Research for Hospitality and Tourism
Introduction to Hospitality and Tourism
Communication Skills
Organisational Behaviour
Micro Economics

and i have a class test for RHT next week. one of my group members for RHT has backed out of school, my IHT is a little laggy behind but doing quite ok since we kinda went down the wrong path and had to restart from the beginning. Comms Skills teacher is screwed and she picks on every single thing on our questionnaire,Econs and OB is currently stagnant. But never mind, Samantha will stay positive and I know my project groups will be able to complete the reports and presentation materials by mid july.Some Term tests results were given back to us and the best ive got was a stupid B+ for my RHT. 38/50 and its a B+. Save me. comms skills essay? B. sigh.

So other than projects what have i been doing?
training.
mon-4.3km
tues- swimming laps
wed-8km
thurs-paddle 7km, gym, and i only completed half of 2.4 before my leg cramped up.
fri-i get to rest
sat- gym and more running

seriously my parents have been on the brink of getting me to pull out of canoeing after a number of lectures and nags from them and me returning home at 11 after a whole day at school. Even for myself im kind of struggling in making a decision. Im struggling with my running, paddling im ok and so is swimming. well i think so.

ive been really frustrated and just so arghhh this week. and i think my classmates are able to tell. i'm being labelled as a noob farmer, a walking zombie, a crazy idiotic insane girl after irritating my friend whilst he was playing his tennis championship on the PSP by covering his screen and pressing his buttons. maybe i should switch to muay thai like what some of them are doing now and vent all my irritating-ness on the punching bag or the other person. ok im joking.

sigh, my brain is a mush of everything. brain, i dont think i need additional problems right now by being rather distracted by a certain someone who sits at the opposite side of the lecture theatre hmmm? gimme a break. plus the fact that i do know him, its kinda difficult to concentrate during lectures. oops. my bad.

crap, whats happening to me. my church mates and majority of my friends have just ended their block tests today and have BOTHERED to start calling me to go out. Thing is i cant. simple as that. Yes i dont have youth day, i cant organise parties for you all and i doubt i can attend them as well. Neither can i go running with Chua even when she calls me to run(it happens in a million years) because im too ultra tired and its my rest day. Even the birthdays cards that i was creating for Deb and Mark? well its collecting dust and its due this sunday.

tell me poly life is slack. so not.

im on the verge of a breakdown and tears may come to me any minute. I miss my home and i miss time. Its 9-7 on most days or maybe 11-9 on others. even when i do have breaks, my mind is just fluttering away. today i wasted an hour of just stoning and nodding of to sleep in the canteen after sharing a lunch of pancakes and chicken cutlet with Gwen.

oh wells, what can i do other than live my life. I'm in need of TAG time. QT is done on the bus on the way to school. I'm sorry God that i have to spend time with you like that. Prayers half said before falling asleep. Sometimes I wonder if its right for me to be a BS leader and be accountable for 2 girls when i myself am struggling with my walk. it leaves me exasperated.

You know what. I need a weekend getaway. Like to Bintan just for Saturday and Sunday. Or a pleasent surprise of staying over at sentosa on a friday night.

But for now i'll just be happy doing scheduling of rehearsals,planning the sharing, projects and canoeing till september holidays come. I'll be happy. Yes I will. I am.

The Laptop sucks.it cant connect to MSN.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007 hello there. how has things been going for you? im really really tired and sleepy. beginning of school, in the midst of projects. oh wells. *sniffles*

Sunday, June 24, 2007 alright. im finally done with sending out files. im tired, my head's swimming with info yet my brain refuses to function. i! concert is coming on fast and we have to squeeze practices in any possible time. It's gonna be heavy on the band but that cant be helped. Thank God for Nancy. Without her i'll probably DIE. as well as my committee, all the logistics, admin, pub, prayer, thank God for them. Amen.

School tomorrow. I'm kinda looking forward to it actually. other than the fact that i have to face my int ht tutor when our project is screwed up down left right. frustrated and very confused with the project.

sleep's calling me. good night.

Sunday, June 24, 2007 ARGHHHHH

im sick of uploading thousands of kb files.
im sick of food
im sick of projects remaining stagnant
im sick of my 4.3km timing-its disgusting

ARGHHHHH

i want a coffee bean ice blended.
i need 10 canoe happy meals. excluding the toy.

busy busy busy busy BUSY. *big SIGH*

Tuesday, June 19, 2007 I currently have aching arms due to 3 sets of 2min punchings, painful thighs because of our happy meal 70 star jumps plus a sore butt after paddling 5km and assisting in 2 rescues in a canoe. All in the name of training. *grins* but i like training. other than the running that is. My stamina has deproved after not running for goodness me how long. Even so, training has been everyday minus sundays but i got a break from today till thursday to 'pia' all my projects, though i think i'll be going down for tomorrow's training. Oh wells, we'll see if im feeling lazy.

Term break ending mightily soon. And it wasnt exactly a break what with projects to complete as well as trainings and concert planning. Busy busy busy, everyday i go home tired and thinking of my bed. and i dont get to wake up late. boohoo.

Still...amidst all my complaining, i've never once regretted going to poly. In fact im kinda loving it. Yes yes i know i always say that i have how many projects and blah blah. forgive me for that. One cant help but complain sometimes can they? haha. But yea, poly's happening and at least for me im always on the ball, moving along quickly from one thing to another, not like if i were to go to JC, i'll currently be mugging my arse off now which i dont really fancy. uh huh. so you get the drift. Freedom to a certain extend, but discipline...a lot.

alright. i've got get going. meeting my friend to fnally conduct our intro to hospitality and tourism project research. Duck Tour!!! Fun! uh oh. the toilet's calling me.

till then my friends. another post soon! i hope. =DD

Wednesday, June 13, 2007 Argh after downloading the pictures i realise that whatever i'd typed is missing. oh me oh my. and you know that whats been typed one cant be exactly retyped again word for word. One thing, im getting tired cause of my incessant coughing, secondly the heat is getting to me and so the disappearance of the whole entry just made things worse for the afternoon.

But still, i'll try my utmost best to remember what i'd intended to type. Ok so SF MID-YEAR RETREAT '07! there werent a lot of people, probably half of what we used to have or maybe its just me exaggerating but still, wen i get the group photo from jacob you can be the judge. When i stayed overnight on suday i could even sleep comfortably on a bed. Not crowded at all.

But even so, the smaller retreat groups we had allowed us to have deeper sharings and more time to hear views fom each other. Fridy night was spent learning how to evangelise in a fresh new way. Not the four spiritual laws, neither the bridge of life. But more of how to input christ in our everyday convrsations and how e can trn it into a gospel sharing. Amazing huh? When we allow our brains to think and be creative boy can we do so much. family time and games on saturday which i missed out but i know was a fun day. Especially for my family who has been preparing for the i! concert since beginning of the year, though we do meet up quite often but its more of a work thing and not getting to know each other in a deeper way, to b able to share our problems and support one another. Thats something i think we have to learn to work on as the year progresses.

BBQ night on sunday.Thats where the SFers had the opportuniy to put wat we've learnt and practice into good use of sharing the gospel. had 5 of the mates come down. Jin Min, Janis, Crystal, Edmund and Wei Jie. Good time of just talking and eating. Though I didnt get to share the full goodnews of who christ is, yet i did manage to have a short chat with one of them whilst waiting for the bus, getting to know her point of view abot christianity and the many questions she has.

Quite a bit of time was spent in prayer for me and a fellow brother in christ durig the retreat and specifically sunday where we committed the weather and our friends to the Lord, trustin in his ways and plans and asking him to give us the wisdom and courage to know how to share to our friends as well as to remove the thunder clouds away. praise God for he did so and there was only a slight drizzle for a while. Amazing huh how prayer and petition works?! *grins*

Alright, i wont bore you anymore with preppy stuff since this is a blog anyway and blogs aren suppose to be boring. Pictures up next, but i dont have everything, only from sunday and monday. Be patient and wait for me to get hold of the pictures from jacob's camera.For now enjoy what we do have. and No, that does not mean pictures take of me so unglamourously. Qudos to samuel kwan for that. *shakeshead*




















Saturday, June 09, 2007 Boy o boy. this week feels like some whirlwind. what with dad and mom gone, term tests, stayovers, parties, retreat and my own training, my body has finally crashed. Saturday. Fever in the morning and still nursing a sore throat. Hence i had to missed training again. rah.
But no matter how horrible i may have felt today, the week has been a blast. 'Cept for the term tests i suppose...



Monday, June 04, 2007 i went back to TOPSHOP today and the item that i wanted to get was gone. oh wells. saved me from spending in there. But i did get an ESPRIT jacket for 50 bucks which was previously priced at 130. So i thought, no harm no harm at all. grins.

Seems like im a very impatient person, waiting for the term tests to pass. MicroEcons today was do-able. Thank God for that. Questions werent much of a problem 'cept that i realise that i drew one of the graphs wrongly. X/. No use crying over spilled milk though. OB tmr. A whole lot of stuff to memorise but i just cant bother to study anymore. Shall just read through it again tmr morning.

Whee Gracia's staying over tomorrow night. Then wednesday she'll go to TP with me and whilst im taking my test she'll study in the library. 10 storeys. whoaaaa. haha. and after that we'll do some shopping again! till i get my fill of GSS.

things im coveting:
Adidas watch
Havaianas
TOPSHOP shoes
Guess/Mango wallet

Darn it. im getting so materialistic. and to top it off they're all so expensive. God save me from these temptations!!!!! ahhhhhhh.

Saturday, June 02, 2007 i dont know whether i should be feeling thankful for today or just complain. You be the judge. Woke up with the flu, throat was a little sore so i decided against going down to bedok reserviour to watch the canoeing competition. Pang sei-ed JM once again and i felt reaaaally bad about it. Sorry Neighbour!

Went back to sleep till 12,(OMG) did a little of econs questions and then went off for worship practice till 3 30. Came back slacked, couldnt and didnt know how to study for RHT so i didnt. I convinced my dad to brin us to vivo but the whole place was jammed packed so we went to Parkway parade. Ate then window shopped by myself. TOPSHOP was having 50% SALE. How upset could i get? VERY.

Right now sam's a very very upset girl cause she didnt get to buy stuff and she still has yet to study for OB and RHT. Wheee Sam, what are you going to do about term tests?

My mom is gonna be outta town from sunday till thursday and Dad is flying off to Sydney on Tuesday morning till Friday. =DD. I have parties on Tuesday and Wednesday. and i have tests on Tuesday and Wednesday. HOHOHO. But im gonna do well. I will. Cause Sam is smart. Durh.

GRACIAAAAAAAAAA I WANNA SHOP. WAILS.

Friday, June 01, 2007 i like my eyecandy cause candies are sweet. =))


im falling sick. =(