im ok now. thanks, you all for the smses and msns. i think i have enough encouragement to fill a bottle =). plus God's mercy and strength. Crying it all out was therapy. Especially when i have my friend on the other side of the phone and my bloster to hug to sleep. Crying to God was equally comforting, knowing that at least theres someone with me even when my whole family's asleep.
i woke up with poofy eyes and people noticed it. oops. thought i would be able to hide it but nope. shakes head. Des thought something happened to my eyes and my classmates commented that 'your eyes are so smallll today'. I just smiled. 'Cept for Gwen. She and I survived today with each other. Thank God for her.
ive been relying too much on my own strength so right now im handing it all to our good Lord. *lifts burdens and passes it to Jesus* yes Lord, carry my worries and headaches for me please? Thank You.
I want to be able to smile again and mean it.
