It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Friday, August 31, 2007 lyrics to my blog song. Its really nice.
Qudos to Dora's friend Benjamin Seow for doing a good job :D

Things that matter

Dont look down on me cos im young

For im full of life and my journeys just begun
I dont have it all figured out
But i dont wanna live my life just following the crowd

And all i hold
Are these dreams and all these hopes
So pls dont take them away from me
When you look into my eyes,
Do you see yourself in me?
Pls help me believe

Chorus:
Cos these are the things that matter,
These are the treasures of my heart
Everything i strive to be
What the world cant take from me
I wanna look back on this life and say
Im proud i lived this way
Was the best that i could be
Every single day

I know there are no imits to the things I can achieve
I know that i am special, I can be a light for all to see
But these hopes I have are things I cannot do without
So please dont put the fire out

Please dont doubt my worth
Sometimes all i need is just a litle love

Would you help me chase these dreams?
Would you carry me, so i can touch the sky?

Do you see the smile on my face?
Its not something you can easily erase
So believe in me, just have a little faith

You can make a difference to my precious life today

Friday, August 31, 2007 today:
chua woke me up in such a rude manner. By calling me and causing my phone to vibrate at 9 30 am in the morning. I mean HEY! 9 30? youve gotta be kidding. *shakes head*
played about with my guitar and i realised that it was already 10 30 and i was suppose to meet the girls at PL at 10 30. so rushed down
watched the ending of the teachers day performance and then went around giving the presents. Haha. oh poopy. i'd realised i didnt pay for them YET.
12 pm and Dora came over to my house for lunch and to study till her friend was done in school
did a lot of sharing and catching up with her. Swapped CDs haha. Her group produced one as well.
5pm was swimming. Its tiring to swim without a float. lol. So much more used to using my arms to swim only. bah. 22 laps. dang.
dinnered with mom and jac
and now im pooped. tired, sleepy, lazy, bummy. whatever else you can think of.


yippe yay yay! training tomorrow! :D :D :D :D

Thursday, August 30, 2007 hellohellohello again! papers are finally over thank God! But 2 months of hols is here. gotta look for a job. My mom refuses to give me allowance. :( help anyone?

Econs was do-able. I mean after doing 4 past year papers, drawing lines and all, the questions were either similar or exactly the same sooo yay for that. Research for hospitality and tourism on the other hand was a piece of crap which i couldnt wait to get over with. I mean some of the questions were out of this world plus the fact that this subject is disgusting. Bell curve and right tailed test and chi square and what nots. gah. So when my friend left the room 45 mins before time was up (we all heard ong lai cursing ang when he left so quickly) i got influenced as well so i flew thru the last question, not bothering to think at all and let my fingers write whatever they wanted. Lots of cancelling and scribbling i must say and out of no where my fingers wrote this:

The result obtained for the significance level is..*fingers cancelled and striked out the whole setence*bullshit.

yeap. thats what i wrote. I dont know why either. As if my hand had a life of it own. scary haha.

Anyhoos. Enough about exams. Dinnered at TM and 10 of us stayed back to watch Hairspray. Coolios! The show was a BLAST. Like totally, superly, extremely gooooood. The boys were a bit reluctant at first to watch it but after the 2 hour show they all came out grinning and laughing. Go and catch it if you can.

Gymmed today with Crystal and then we headed down to the pool. didnt bring my swimming attire though so relaxed at the pool i did, watching John Tucker Must Die with Wei Jie on Cryst's Apple and poking fun at our dog; edmund.

Alrights my hands are about sore from all the typing. Swimming tomorrow! wheee. Thats the life.

i have a sudden urgh to type: ROLLSEYES. hahahahaha

Wednesday, August 29, 2007 i am getting so frustrated with lines and axises, monopolists, oligopolies and what nots.
SAVE ME.

i'll be dreaming of lines tonight.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007 Studied in school today and i had plenty of people to company me. *biggrin* gwen came first with lotsa of goodies for me. i love her to bits. shes like a mother, fussing around and making sure i eat. thank you gwen! and yes, i know you want to picture to be up. so i'll upload it tmr after our dinner alrights? :D

crystal came by as well to company me even though she doesnt have anything to study for. lucky girl. But i know. design school has a whole lo of stuff to complete. so we're fair and square. her Applelaptop kept on distracting me because she was watching prison break. haha. we were laughing at the crazy man who wanted to build a aft to sail to holland from america. I know she missed me. she does :D and i miss her too!

desmond and peng ghee were there as well doing their own study, with pg mother being a nusience who kept shoo-ing me off but demanding more food from the lunch box that i shared with them. tsk. somebody's gonna be an old hag tomorrow. 19 years old. haha.

i gotta study! taa!

Sunday, August 26, 2007 alright. 3 more days to econs and research for hospitality and tourism exam. ive had my weekend break. Settle down girl. Only 3 more days. I know i can get that A and scholarship if i want to.

Prayer today was really fruitful. Even though it rained at first, God was merciful enough to stem the rain until the whole thing was over. Walked about with Hui Chean and Tabitha and got to know them more as we prayed together and shared. Great girls, equally talkative so conversation flow was there. It was encouraging to see so many SFers attending the outdoor prayer even though many have other responsibilities.

Lunched at orchard lido with the girls after that. Subway, Pastamania, Macs...mmmmm. haha Gracia wants to start a matchmaking agency for the comm members. it was a blast. All of us trying to analyse their characters and behaviours. Zhi Zhen and Xin Ying were good sportsmen, joining in the fun...even though they were the main targets. Lol. Shopped at Topshop for the sake of using my 20% discount before it expires on tuesday. Bought 2 tops and 2 necklaces. Xin Ying kept commenting that the tops were all so...usual on me. Of course! What unusual clothes do you want my friend? :D

Train-ed to bishan with Gracia, Alice and Alieen where all but the latter got off and headed down for yumi yoghurt. Seriously...at the rate im consuming food and NOT burning them off...its scary. How many pounds am i packing on? Gah. Went to study at Bishan CC by myself for 2 hours before going down to PS for dinner with my mom and sis.

Oh boy do I miss Bishan CC. Its been 10 months. The last time i was there, we were always having silent table snatching wars with the Cat High boys, having extra tuition from our chem and A math teachers and getting a shock when a cat high boy found my ez link card in the toilet. Go dig up the archives if you want to know about it haha. These are the days that will always remain as im closing this chapter of my journey. Its sad we have to part, you'll be always in my heart and I thank God for being part of this journey. How apt, how apt. It sometimes leaves in my heart a sour feel whenever i think of them now. everybody caught up in the busyness of their own lives.


i dont know why but i found myself scribbling down words definitely not related to the study of micro economics on my lecture notes whilst studying. funny words i must say. tsktsk sam.

I'm gonna be like a tree, planted by the water TRUSTING in the FATHER to keep me STRONG

Saturday, August 25, 2007 a cuppa coffee, one book and a big plush chair. thats all i want right now.

Even shopping seems tiring to me.

Not having training makes me depressed and acting weird. Like almost crying and refusing to study because the sky is too blue to be wasted on books, and me roaring at everyone and everything.

fun, funny, funnier, funniest. bahhhbahhh. ): somebody tell me a joke.

Thursday, August 23, 2007 i like studying in the school's library. Its nice and quiet and the cubicles are cozy. like my own little home. Exam transcripts on the right, notes on the left, food in the centre, bags on top and studying material sprawled all over the rest of the space. MP3 plus a nice comfy jacket helps.

Seriously, i didnt realise how much books and resources our library has. The have billions and gazillions of leather binded resources thats real nice to feel. haha. Just walking through the shelves, peeking at the titles and deciding which one to take. Past year papers are neatly binded into one book, Year 1 Sem 2 2004/2005. So neat, so professional. Haha. I feel studious. OK. Correction, i DO NOT feel. I AM.

After gymming for an hour today with Sarah and Serena we lunched at Jupiter Cafe and then studied for the whole afternoon. Oh friends, dont patronise jupiter cafe anymore. Their serving portions have gone down by HALF. They now only serve 1 piece of fish, the fries are countable and the coleslaw is one splatsplut of a table spoon on the plate. Though the quality is still there but the portion. Not worth it. Shakes Head.

Sneaking food into the library is half the fun. Choosing what to buy is the other. Spending the money is negative. So that adds up to...0. Oh i miss math. Sarah was busy doing physics(yucks) while Serena was quietly doing accounting. Me? I was rocking my chair back and forth to the music, trying to find a comfortable sitting postion, muching on my Tasty sticks and wallowing in the depths of Power and Politics, and Conflict management. I am now officially the pro at solving conflicts. Any problem come to me. hahaha. Stupid theories. If theres conflict just face up to it. I dont need what not Alderfer and McCelland's ideas. Ok wait...thats Motivation. Oh bull.

Revision for Int Ht at 9! Time check its 8 45 and i need to shower. Brother's flooding the tooooilet again.

dear Neighbour how come you have so much time to gym and swim and row? Its not fair. i wanna row too. ): All the best for your papers class and team maties!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007 heeeeeelloooooooooo! i'm loving my notes! Beautiful 1-paper-per-chapter notes. You make me happy and satisfied. Studying for Int HT makes me wanna do lots of things after the exams.

I wanna go to the Venetian Macao Resort Hotel thats opening next week. Its going at a super affordable rates. HK $1088 per night for a suite.
Go check it out!! http://www.venetianmacao.com/en/home.aspx

Or a getaway at Bintan, Phuket, Tioman or where ever would be great too. Sun!
I'm walking on sunshine baby whoo!

Hmmm Palm Resorts would be awesome but thats left for dreaming. Hurrhurr. Some students got their internship program at Maldives. 5 months of blessed sun, sea and and.. sun. *dreamy look*

Ohh hoo hoo studying makes me feel funny. Oh crap. I just drew on my mousepad wih a blue pen without knowing. *growls*

I feel like studying outside. But i dont have my bishan mates with me. Hiding out at esplanade library would be cool as well. Anybody wants to company me for the next 2 weeks? =D

God is so good
God is so good
God is so good
He's so good to me. :)

Sunday, August 19, 2007 my weekend was fun. friday was spent gymming and tennis-ing and basketballing with my team mates. Tennis was with Gui Feng and Sok Fan whom i happened to bump into while cooling down outside the gym. Gui Feng is still as vain as ever. hahaha. wanting me to take pictures of her PRETENDING to be a pro at tennis when she cant even hit the ball. Oh but i miss her loads.

Saturday was cooold. Ran in the rain and huddled together at the club while waiting for it to subside. A SA guy got into an accident and fractured his leg. Sigh poor boy. Wont be able to row for a while. and the rest are in confinement. The girls were all very bored paddling up and down after a while so we did our own training by competing in short dist. sprint. haha. Yolanda went all over the place. Tsktsk. Her boat went from 2nd lane to 4th. lol.

BBQ at Gabriel's house was coolios. Spinning mushrooms, Fish thighs, hard chicken, crabstick mouths and sparkling juice to gargle. haha. Tasty, yummy food. Plus the friends and all. Video of the retreat 7 years back at Austin Hills was the highlight. Pointing out various people and identifying them, comparing the change in SFers from their younger days in sunday school. Priceless.

Friends really make your life so much more meaningful. Feeling blessed and knowing that you have people around you is one of the greatest joys God can give us. =))

Thank You God for my friends.

Thursday, August 16, 2007 My papa gave me money to buy a handsome adidas watch in school. i got it cheaper than retail price. *grins* stupid classmates nagged and nagged at me, saying i was spending my dad's hardearned money and what other bullshit. Si Kai followed me to the push cart, nagging all the way like a chicken aunty until he saw the watches. and then his face changed. that ninny boy wanted to buy it as well. Temptation huh friend? After that he shut up and stopped bothering me. haha.

Paddling today was fun. Well the beginning part wasnt cause im still very nervous paddling K. Even Junior K i messed up and capsized when i tried turning. So coach made me paddle T after an hour. Some dark clouds and strong winds blew over but after that came the pretty rainbow. We were all commenting what a lovely sight the reserviour was. Still waters, cooling weather, a rainbow and clouds that covered the evening sun. Pretty picture.

I suddenly heard a song being played whilst paddling at the same time. Coach was playing music thru his phone into the loudhailer. hahaha. He said " Let you all cool down. go paddle 10 more mins. I provide you all with music." LOL. and you could like hear " WE WILL WE WILL ROCK YOU! ROCK YOU!" funny.

Gymming tmr plus basketball with my mateys! =D

Wednesday, August 15, 2007 tired. So sleepy. But i gotta do my presentation outine for tomorrow. Yawns. Been training everyday.

Yesterday was yucky. Ant's nest in my boat and I picked up what i thought was a live turtle but was already rotting. SICK. Rotting turtle soup anyone? *shudders* competed among the girls yesterday. 7 rounds of paddling. was so frustrated when i couldnt catch up with the 2nd person. Stuck at third. Nevermind. Next time i'll be second.

20 laps today and then went home. Finally after a long time could i sit down and have a meal with my family. Tired arms.

Last and final presentation for the semester tomorrow. Been getting back my reports and final coursework grades.

RHT: A
OB: A
Econs: ?
Int HT: ?
BCS: C+ (bah) computer.
Comm Skills: ?

GPA of 4. Attainable? I hope so. A 3.5 would be good. But i need to start studying real soon. Oh joy. I want that scholarship.

Monday, August 13, 2007 As the i! concert wears off, the cd doesnt. I listen to it in school and at home. and so does my friends. sold 1 to gwen and another to ong lai. Really glad that gwen likes it. hope ong lai likes it too. =)

Reading the lyrics and the stories behind it really got me thinking about how much all of us go through in life. "These are the days" is so apt for all those who sorely miss their friends. Well people like me for instance. I still miss my dear PL girls and no one can replace them.

so applicable to life. Sigh.
Yesterday was spent at home with Aileen, Xin Ying and Yun. We watched 2 movies. serioulsy just bummed around my house. Gosh. We are lazy people. hahaha. Well forgive us. The 3 girls have big roles you know so its alright for them to break. Drama i/, singer, and band i/c. But we all are already missing the practices! hahaha.

oh wells. life's gotta get back to normal sooner or later. telling deb. I dont miss the long hours of practice. I just miss the people. its gonna be a long time before i get use to being less busy.



how do you forget someone?
1) pray and beg God to get them out of your head
2) shut them out of your mind and keep yourself reallll busy
3) think of their bad points that'll put you off
4) sleep and wish that person away
5) ignore the person when you see him/her.

stop stop stop. you're so distracting. oh God. help.HELP

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Sunday, August 05, 2007 To all i! concert performers. I have full confidence in you all. After seeing all of you rehearse today, ive gotta say, youve all improved TREMENDOUSLY. and i mean it. Yea during briefing and de-brief i didnt say it but i could tell you all were working hard. JIA YOU! its in 6 days time. Remember we're God's instruments. Let Him do the work through us!

Time really passes by so fast huh? its like all of a sudden i'd realise like HEY! its only 6 more days. Exciting!!! I'm really really looking forward in seeing what God has in store for us all and what amazing work He's gonna do. Whenever i think about it, inside of me i go "whoa God. what power are you gonna release?" haha.

Anyhoos. I just wanna say, no matter how mad(angry)/frustrated/pissed i may seem at times during practices, i still do love you all loads. I'm sorry that i have difficulty controlling my emotions but sometimes the stuff you all do really makes me go "arghhhh! cant you all listen?!" heh. As i told Roger, i feel like a ogre at times. Ok more like of "i feel like an ass for throwing my temper"

After the whole thing is over, we'll finally get a breather before anything starts up again.And to think, my family group is also in charge of the Christmas Programme. *FAINTS* Oh God, what did we get ourselves into?! Haha.

Dont you think that babies bring people together? Seriously speaking, Joseph is like the peacemaker in SF. haha. Oh dont we all love him to bits. *grins*


PRESENTATION TOMORROW! the major one. Impress IMPRESS!!


Thursday, August 02, 2007 i wasnt expecting much. the birthday wishes were enough to make me happy. But my classmates bought me a cake, the canoeists gave me a big card including coach's wishes, coach gave us bananas, terence gave me a whole lot of pretty stuff and my fellow MSM's made me sooo mad that turned to a great night. and canoeists wanted to taupok me. Shudders. Thank God that they were merciful haha.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007 training today was fun. And though i have to admit i was dreading it, it did take my mind off everything for that 1 1/2 hour. Just swimming laps up and down and talking to my mates. Really stress relieving. I love canoe. =) No matter how tiring it gets.

28 laps only today. 40 next week. I will i shall. smiles.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007 i got a new e mail. samantha.see@hotmail.com HAHAHA. so people send to this e mail ok. oh yes fortius.altius is still in use but samsam_sees is gone. lol. SamTUL got too bored. *laughs* ok sorry that was an inside joke. sniggers.

im freezing in the lab right now. Blasted aircondition. 5 classmates are down with conjunctivities. Scary. As if some gang had beaten them up or something. God protect the rest of the class so that we wont get it as well.

*burps* long day today. should i swim by myself or should i stay back for training till 9 30?

econs presentation tomorrow!!! after that i'll be a little more free. a teeny weeny little free.