It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Monday, February 25, 2008 Good day of studying today with Si Kai, Rayna, Seong and Alex. Seriously, MARKETING SEEMS TO BE HAUNTING US. Like when Rayna and I took a break from studying and went down to CHEERS!, almost every table that we passed said something like ' cost value products so they are willing to ...' and even in CHEERS! itself, we were wondering why a certain drink had 2 different designs for the exact same product/flavour. I was all 'REPACKAGING! AHHHHH! RUNN!' though I did buy the newer design bottle. Heh. Every one around was flipping the horrible $50 textbook that will probably take us forever to complete reading. Burn and drink! All the marketing teachers were out in full force, in different groups trying to give some last minute advice.

Econs tomorrow. :) At least that's one paper that I feel prepared for. Rayna spent half the time of studying to steal glances at her eyecandy. In the end we realised that it was the wrong guy who looked exactly alike only less tan. Haha. So he's become our Mr. Wrong Eyecandy. :D

Year 1 is coming to a close. Like totally fast. The next 2 years will be a crazy rush.
2.1 @ Sentosa
2.2 @ Temasek Culinary Academy, taking CDS and Elective subjects
3.1 (next year march) Start of Internship. I want OverseasSIP pleaseeeeee.
3.2 FYP (Final Year Project)

Whew. Everythings all laid out for me. The only thing thats not ready is time. Should I ask it to fly or to slow down?

I'd be graduating in March 2010. By then the IRs would have been up and running, Singapore will be preparing for the youth olympics and I SHOULDNT have a problem of securing a decent job. Pray Pray Pray.

Ok. I want time to fly to June '08 and then move reallll slow when im overseas and then fly again until 3.1. Heh. I can ask for it can I?

Dear God, please help all of us through the next few days of examinations. We're feeling so so tired after endless projects and all and we really do not feel like studying anymore but we have to. So I pray Lord that you'll be with us and give us strength like eagles to soar high. Your strength Lord, not by our own might. Jesus I pray that even as we study, we'll be able to remember all that we've learnt and keep it inside. I pray that you'll walk with the class and I as we sit for the various exams. That you'll hold my hand tightly and not let go. Heavenly father thank you for teaching me to have faith in you like you said in Galations. Thank you for telling me that you'll be wherever I am. Thank you for daddy and mummy who parys for me and blesses me. Thank you for church friends who are so encouraging. Thank you for my BS contacts, leader and partner that helps me to grow in you. Thank you for trials with bestest friends that we can learn from and grow from even though we hardly have time to talkm to each other now. Thank you for crazy school mates who always never fail to make my day. But most of all Lord, thank you for being my Father. :) Thank you so so much. Amen

Sunday, February 24, 2008 I got a nice surprise when hannahtansiping smsed me saying that she wanted to date me out today. :) Too bad that i gotta stay home and study but soon dear! Soon! Thursday's freedom for 7 weeks!

Ok. I've had enough of being scared to study. Pull up your socks Sam, cause here comes the A's.

I've completed 6 chapters of marketing within 3 hours :DDDD

Saturday, February 23, 2008 Marketing's on wednesday. I have 16 chapters to study and I have NOT started.

I feel like crying. :(

Wednesday, February 20, 2008 Kiang Ang's msn nick puts: Anti-POM and I agree with that

Currently, right now, wasting my brain away, I have an extremely strong urge to skip the exams. Like yes, skip, meaning 40% trashed into the bin. Its totally not what i'd do and dont worry, I doubt I will. Thing is, POM is like...evil stepmothers, trying to wringe your neck and force feed you with disgusting medicine till you die of an overdose like Heath Ledger. My brain's so full, its saturated but I do know that I cant get an A if I dont continue studying on and on until the paper ends.

Fools, fools all of us. Condoning to the crazy study culture of Singapore. Slap me will you.










Friday, February 15, 2008 I must say that I felt almost out of place. Like as if there was this invinsible plastic wall that was blocking me from the rest. Well, I can easily blame it on my 'resignition' from the debate scene, and going down for viewing isnt going to revive my mind once again to 'argument' gear. or analytic gear whatsoever.

Just walking around, peeping into each debate room and feeling the familiar shivers of excitement and anticipation once again did make me long and maybe even pine to be back in the debate areana. A couple of familiar faces here and there, and the continuous clapping and scrapping of chairs for points-of-information.

The girls did well. Great to say the least. Their first round in A Div, now Division I, against UWS and they won by a unanimous decision. :) Well done girls, well done. And surprise surprise, dear Nicole Mao was adjucating, well probably shadow adjucating, but still! To think that 5 years ago we were wondering "what in the world are adjucators? such a big name" and even having the thought that maybe, maybe one day we'll be at that position, taking down notes, rating speaker after speaker and giving off comments and advice. She's done it :)

Yes yes, i've always been a tiny bit jealous of her even during our secondary school years. Call it... competetiveness or childishness yet even when each of us spoke, I guess for me I've always wanted to be the best speaker. Up till now, I'll never be really sure if I should have continued debating, DSA-ed to ACJC, basically the well trodden and safe path instead of venturing off into the unknown jungle, trying to slay dragons and beasts that ive never seen in my life. My english has never been brilliant like how most 'Top 10 speakers' are. Yes, I've been disappointed, I am still disappointed and suppose will/may still be upset at one point or another with my standard as well as how i carry myself. I've always wondered if I was capable enough to be a well received debater and even an adjucator. No, I dont see myself vying for a spot in the World Debating Championship like Rachael Quah(tmr's the trials) but maybe, maybe I'll be good enough to be a decent judge. I dont know. :)

There's so many things thats in my mind left unanswered only that most of the time I dont say it or speak of it. Sigh. Frustrating sometimes.

Is this pride? Once again I'm left with an "I-Don't-Know" answer.

Thursday, February 14, 2008 i said " Il y a un café internet dans la chambre?" instead of "Il y a un café internet dans l’hôtel?" and stuck out my tongue after that to a laughing teacher. Oh gosh. what more can go wrong?

(I asked if there was an internet cafe in my hotel room instead of in the hotel. Yes. I know, Its sounds stupid. Like mega stupid. Hurrhurr.)

Assessments are finally over and i can fully concentrate on studying and moving my grades one up. I cant say that ive done brilliantly for the coursework. Thank God for my decent mid semestral grade that helped in pulling the whole grade up. Sigh. Sometimes I just feel like doing what the world does. It isnt the least bitty bit easy especially when it affects your own grade/score/mark. :/

2008 hasnt been the best 2 months yet. I'm waiting for March to lift my spirits.

P.S. Happy Valentines everyone :) You know that i love you

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus

You don't need the answers to all of life's questions

Just know that He loves them and stay by their side

Love them like Jesus

Love them like Jesus

Monday, February 11, 2008 Florists are laughing their hearts out as they rip off innocent victims from their money


















Sunday, February 10, 2008 And so the Chinese New Year ends on a Sunday night where children finish the last of their homework and the adults wait for Monday Blues to take them by the hand. (And Sam has probably drank more wine within 4 days than she ever has in the past 17 years. Merlot from Chile and the Icewine was probably the best.)

Though theres still...11 more days of Chinese New Year yet life does have to return back to normal. Especially for TP students. Ayeee. Study week is coming up and then the looming exams. This semester has been much more demanding to say the truth and the thought of exams makes me want to crouch down and hide under my bed. Heh. Shameful Sam. Theres more expectations to live up to now. Maintaining my 3.5 GPA and even holding on to the slight, slight possibility of being on the DHL list. I know that i should get a headstart in memorising all the wine and the regions but everythings so intimidating. Even Marketing.

My mind has been so preoccupied with thoughts of exams that I havent exactly been able to enjoy the festive season. 1 more week of school, 1 study week and 4 days of nightmarish exams before I dive fully into the joy of canoeing, shopping and tanning.

I long for the days of just having nothing to do and wandering around places with my friends. Theres so many people that I want to hang out with. 3 more weeks Sam! Ugh.
She can continue to be childish for all i care.
Dreams can be so good that you just want to cling on to that hope. Dream on Sam, dream on.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008 i love terminal 3. apart from the fact that its freezing cold there. But the place is lovely and quiet. :)

Tuesday, February 05, 2008 I'm beginning to get caught up in the world's worst nightmare. Politics. :] To top things off, I'm in the middle of it all. Some just dont know it. Haha Sam. Well done.



Its for the team. and for me.

Monday, February 04, 2008 Watching movies such as 27 dresses and No Reservations makes one happy for 2 hours. but after that everything comes back again. The feeling's not nice. :/

Its been a looooong time since i've felt so...weird. And no, I dont have my period. Gah.
Well at least doing work helps me to forget everything for a while.

Training tmr. :) Now that'll remove all thoughts for at least another 2 hours. Good.

Sunday, February 03, 2008 Its not easy you know.
Wanting to be the best for your friend and they misunderstand you
Wanting to know how i can be that friend that you want me to be and you call me names
I've tried my best.
Calling doesnt seem to work. You said we'll talk tmr
You went home without a word
She says that you're not mad anymore. Maybe you're just petty-ish right now
And i'm feeling so lost as to how to be that friend.
Its difficult, its very difficult when you dont want to talk to me
All i want is to get rid of the friction and we can call each other every other night again
I'm trying really. I dont know what to do anymore.

"our strengths is that we can keep secrets, our weakness is that we can keep secrets"
"we can give to others, but we cant receive from others"

You cant imagine how much ive cried over this.

Saturday, February 02, 2008