It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Saturday, June 28, 2008 The week is finally over. Sam made it through the crazy week. :D

A number of birthdays happened and are gonna happen (Belated shout outs to my dear friends!)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
DEBORAH!
CHUA!
MARK!
GWEN!
DENISE!
JON! (2 1/2 hours away from being 21) :D
Sam does not need any trouble with shirt sizes labelled xl. Sam needs to focus and stop getting distracted by the size. =/
Sam needs a new pair of havaianas. Sam wants somemore bags. Sam needs to improve her 500m timing. Sam needs more water time. Sam needs a crazy friend right now- I need Chua or Gracia or Dora with me nowww.

Listening to Go Light Your World, passing by Maplewood park, thinking about the upcoming PL musical, bumping into Feng Jie brought back nostalgia. I want to go back to basketball. I miss the sound of the ball swishing into the net and the bouncing on the pavement. I want to hear the irritating school assembly song and hide all our books in the storeroom. I want to laugh like theres no tomorrow with Bre and Hannah and Mich Ng and Celeste and Xiu all over again.

I miss me.

Friday, June 27, 2008 NCC is outoutout! I wanna join 200, 500 and 10 000 :D Dont want 1000.
Should I, Can I?
I need to cut down my timing to 2 20 at least. Freaking far behind. =(


Some ass stole my havaianas. He/She sucks. I had to wear fugly crocs home.
Totally Pissed.

Monday, June 23, 2008 Time check: 106am 23 June.
The week we've all been preparing for is here. 23 JUNE. OMG

God I need your strength. I swear I wont be able to survive this week if You're not with me. What with presentations, submissions, consultations, tests and training just this week alone I think I could die or faint or something. Especially today and tuesday.

I'm already so tired.

Church today was...better than i expected. :) thank you God. Please please help me settle down if this is where you want me to be.

Time check: 121am 23 JUNE

Saturday, June 21, 2008 Dad said that I can migrate and work overseas for all he cares after graduation. He meant it in a good way. That got my brain working and thinking of the possibilities. If I go over to Hawaii to study, I could probably stay on to work if i want to. Dad suggested joining an international chain of hotels, that way I'll get to be posted overseas like Hilton.

What will be will be. Till 2010.

Saturday, June 21, 2008 TIRED. Today was a looooong day.

CDS selection at 10am. I chose Calculas cos Ang said that its freaking easy and Im lazy to study so hopefully its as easy as he says it is. World issues was my second choice. Cool subject yo! Plus Culinary elective. I forsee an exciting 2.2 semester in Oct. :D

Swimming test after CDS selection which I realised I couldnt take after swimming 4 laps cause my left arm couldnt recover high enough :( So i ended up coaching Yolande in her swimming. Shes getting better at it. Go Yol!

Quick lunch with the team and then project meeting with Hotness, Naz, Winnie, Clair & Jess. We were getting extremely exasperated by the stupid project cause we didnt understand a hoot on what the question was asking for. So we turned to throwing gummy bears and mentos sweets at each other plus hiding Naz's slipper for relieve.

Meeting ended at 3 30, met Melvin, touched up the documents for 6pm meeting and then ran up and down from SAA trying out the stupid cage key. Paddled for 1/2 an hour before rushing back to school for the meeting.

Oh gosh I swear that Kenn conducts the longest meetings at horrible timings. 6pm till 915pm str. All the watersports leaders were starving and tired by then, and poor Wei Jie was suffering cos he was running a fever and Kenn didnt let him off. Roar. Smelly SDO.

Dinnered with the DBers and then Eveleen sent me home :D I need to sleep but I got work to complete before tmr morning's presentation rehearsal. A tired Sam is a grumpy Sam.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008 sam says:
then i alone AGAIN
sam says:
like seriously sometimes you all dont know but it affects me luh
R e d a r k n e ى ى (S) says:
i noe it affects u
sam says:
but i cant do anything abt it so *shrugs*

sam says:
its like no matter how close i get to the girls but there definitely will be that gap btwn us
sam says:
im not talking abt strength here. Im talking abt the r/s
sam says:
like so many of them and they can pair off easily. for you guys still ok. at least have you and wei jie
sam says:
most of the time its just me
R e d a r k n e ى ى (S) says:
actually ur right, there is weijie and me

R e d a r k n e ى ى (S) says:
ur like...no one on pace with u
sam says:
mmm. im inbtwn

sam says:
sometimes i wonder what it'll feel like if i was in their team cos i COULD have been. i wanted to join SAJC or ACJC canoe but i took the poly route

Oh I can't be bothered to talk about WHAT IFS anymore. Just focus and train Sam.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008 At times I wonder why so many of us sportsmen bother to do the things we do. To wake up early for training when we cant even get out of bed for usual school, to go through the trainings that get us aching and blisters, to endure and want more more more even though we're injured.

Weirdddddd.

Hulk was nice. I'll give it 3.5/5 stars. and I'm totally looking forward to Dark Knight followed by whatever and when everyone comes together to be merry and fight smelly evil monsters :D

I gotta start my studyingggg. GG.

Sunday, June 15, 2008 1 more week. 10 00000000 things to complete

I totally forgot abt the tests coming up next week. Oh goodness. Lord help me to survive the week of 23rd June. Thats all I ask for...right now.

1 submission, 2 presentations, 2 consultations, 2 tests. Wonder if i'll have the energy to go down for training. I must, I will, I have! Come on Sam come on.

Tomorrows one busyyyy day. Morning training followed by Science Centre visit for Attractions management project and then The Hulk and BBQ birthday celebration with Ong Lai and gang. Do hope i'll be able to make it in time for the bbq. =/

I know im being all over the place, typing in bits and pieces so pardon me. Anyhoos, when people are test driving cars and deciding which one to buy, i went boat shopping today. Ok technically not really. Just test rowing the lower seletar reserviour. Coach wanted me to try out a K1 which is more suitable for women. Made by Elio. The boat's really bouyant. Problem was that the reserviour was so full or weeds that it hindered my rowing properly as the weed kept getting caught in the front of the boat affecting the cutting of the water. And the cockpits really really wide. Totally weird after sitting in boats that are usually small. Especially SAJC's K1.

Well I doubt we'll be purchasing this brand of boat. Not really to my liking and I doubt coach likes it totally either. Guess we gotta settle for Nelo though they dont have boats specially made for women. :)

Right. I gotta do up my presentation slides. Ciao

Saturday, June 14, 2008 So theres this big thing going around TP abt the deceased OCT Clifton Lam. He was in the main comm of TPSU 06/07 and FA of Zilra 07/08. I dont know him personally, being in Ophix and not Zilra but still, I cant help but feeling a sense of loss in the TP community. Though it isnt openly spoken, yet under the hush hush of it all I'm certain that many are mourning the lost of a great student, friend, GL, FA and son.

Condolences to the family of Clifton Lam.
1987-2008.

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No, I'm not emo like what Chun insists. I just have lots of things to think about. I'm trying to stay positive. Trying not to be too stubborn. Trying to be patient and wait for my arm to recover. Trying to get my project mates to keep moving and get their ass working for the presentation.

I'm trying and trying and trying. How come it seems so much harder this year?

Thank God for friends like Gwen, Don, Naz, Gina and the rest who helps in distracting me from current worries. They're awesome. I can just call/sms them up and off we go for dinner or gym or stupid laughing session. :)

I didnt go for training today cos I figured that even if I went, I wont be able to take part in the interval training AS USUAL. *I dont know why but I'm feeling verrrrry guilty, but yet i cant do anything* GUILTY and I cant rub that feeling off. Whats happening? Its just a CCA.

Friday, June 13, 2008 The house is awfully quiet without my family around. Its really really really quiet. Guess they're happily rolling on the lawns of Buckingham palace. *Shrugs*

Training has been hell this week. Its twice a day 6 days a week. But I'm in no position to complain cos I havent been taking full participation in it. I want to. I really do but my arm's getting in the way. Coach brought some of us to the sinseh on monday and ohhh goodness did he give me a painful time. Rub rub rub, shout and tear. Whenever he pressed the injured areas I had to control myself but coach said that it was alright to cry so I did. HAH. Have a horrible bruise now on my arm because of the massage. Awful. and Painful. Stupid Zi Chee kept on trying to poke my bruises that evil guy. He kept on staring at it like...like LUSTFULLY. LOL. I quote "wah very scary, but...nice to poke!"

I feel rather disappointed by the turn of events. Cancelling my holiday so that I could stay back and train only to have this injury come back again, wasting my money and my time when I could be running about Covent Garden. I dont know what to do. Really really. maybe its time i let go for a looong period before returning. and I admit, I need to run back to God. Soon. Like Now.

Someone help. I'm losing my footing in this world. I'm getting confused over small things and I know that I'm not doing my best in projects and school work. HELP.

I feel.... l.o.s.t.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008 Am I stupid to have cancelled my holiday just so that I could train during the hols? It ended up with me having to be brought to the sinseh by coach and having a really sore arm now. I cant lift it up straight and there are big bruises where the doctor rubbed me. Those guys that saw it were...speechless.

SIGH.

Sometimes I wonder whats running through my own head. Like I'm so willing to go for training 2 times a day 6 days a week without any complains. Are you foolish Sam or are you stupid?

Saturday, June 07, 2008
Oh gone were the days that we could sleep on 2 chairs


Marcuuuuuuuus dear Go cut your hair please! haha


In the lift going up up up! They make me so happy :D

Thursday, June 05, 2008 Sam's a tired girl.
Sam's a happy tired girl.
The week has been a blast. Like really. Even with the projects and research but still. Company and activities have been great!

Of course the movie and prata house with Ron and Don was great on monday (durh)
Tuesday was rowingggg! and I had a lovely time spent with Gwen just talking, thinking, watching little secondary school kids apply sunblock even though dark clouds were hanging above us. haha I had a run down with some boys who were doing dragon boat and boyyy did they make me feel good. Lol. Cause they were 1 bouy behind me after i finished. Hehe. Yes i know im a cheater. I make use of little boys.

Yesterday was our trip down to URA city gallery and boyy were we amazed at the information available. Serious case of information overload. We could probably spend the whole day at the research centre going through page after page of government gazettes and city planning and building plans. Overwhelmed was what we felt. and we walked and walked and walked in search of the French Business Centre only to find out that the centre was closed and took over by EBay instead. All that walking for nothing =( Ok i got to burn calories. hahaha. I can probably take you on a tour of the CBD now cause i know where almost everything is.

Today today! Meetings, we got our ROM presentation slides up and done! Yay! and i finally pushed myself to run the reserviour after a thousand years! Yay! and I got to row after that! Yay! and Uncle Poon XL kept on capsizing and making me tow his boat and smelly him back to shore. 3 times within 1/2hour. Everytime I finish a run down he'll capsize and wait for me to tow him back. No yay for that. Hahahaha. and then we travelled down from school to thompson Prata House to eat which took forever and 3 buses. Yay! Cos the prata was worth the travelling.

Tomorrow i'll be kayaking with my dear maties to coney island (i hope)! and then back to school for a evening swim. Yayyy! Saturday is training, wedding and party. Sunday is church and packing. Monday morning is...our FLIGHT! Hyde Park here I come to rowww!!! :D

YAYYYYYY to holidays!

Monday, June 02, 2008 So so, within a short period of 5 days, everything seems to have gone past in a blur.
Biz etiquette test, submission of ROM!,
Sleeping in on a saturday afternoon,
Getting cheated at the DHL ceremony (lol),
Church and Joseph! i finally got to carry that dear again,
Studying and fooling ard with the guitars with Don a day before accounts test,
ACCOUNTS test(OMG i couldnt balance the freaking balance sheet. It was driving me crazy for the wholeee hour),
Narniaaaa :DD and Dinner at Prata house!

Narnia was awesome! Ok some said that it wasnt worth watching but for me...2 thumbs up! :D I like the ending scene. it kinda makes you look forward to the next movie. But the voyage of the dawn treader will probably consist of new characters because it is so in the book. Oh wells.

and Dinner was...extremely filling. I was left speechless when the uncle gave me my $5.50 worth of murtabak. Horrified to that extend. HAHA. Thankfully I had 2 boys with me to finish everything up. But by the end of it all we were 3 bloated, fat tummy people. Oh wells. Training tmr. hahaha. The usual excuse. *grins*

I'm gonna chiong training this week cause i wont be able to get in any training time from the 9-19. Why so, you ask. Wellllll, cause im going to Loooondon and Scoootland yo!

But yes, im gonna lose out on some things. =/ oh wells. After much debate and asking for advice I decided to go ahead with it. Dont miss me too much friends! haha. I think i'll probably be the one missing you all and trainings. Lol.