It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Tuesday, July 01, 2008 Arghhh why cant he take the initiative to settle the work plan, budget, nominal role and whatever else necessary and pass it to Kenn. Having to receive emails from kenn chasing us for them isnt exactly positive I must say but I cant do much being stranded 5 days a week on an island and even though I do go back to Tp its 6pm and SAA would have closed. I cant do everything yet it feels as if I am suppose to be doing everything. WTH. As if im not stressed enough. Extremely frustrated but my hands are tied.

Classes end relatively late for 2 days while the rest of the sch hours have me being able to come down for training. However theres no time that both of us can actually sit down and discuss the various things necessary what more meet up with Kenn for debrief. Sometimes I feel that the responsibility is really too much for me to bear at times. I

envy JC kids. All they do is come down to row fullstop.
-No worries about registering for the competition,
-No fights/quarrel abt who is going down for team managers briefing because everyone has test/project submission the next day
-No worries about not having enough boat,
-If the school intends to purchase boat for them they dont have to actually sit down and discuss with coach and then make the purchase themselves, fill in forms, get a check and settle the whole purchase
-No issue about canoe annual budgeting, workplan, asset list etc.
-No clashes of timing with each other where one leader ends at 1pm and the other ends at 7pm and theres no hance for a meeting
-No problem for them to chase their juniors to fill in the nominal role
-No need for them to settle the sports attire and go all the way down to bukit timah to get the stuff.
Cause everythings settled by their Teacher I/C.

If i was a nalgene bottle, Im filled to the 900ml already. I cant fill up much any longer before I spill over. The travelling to and fro Sentosa everyday, school tests whcih I only study for the night before, 5000 word proposal due in 15 days time, and the whole list of stuff I need to fulfill.

Sometimes I wonder...why did I end up with a QM that has a brain and initiative like a block of wood. Oh GOD HELPPPPPPP. I'm very close to breaking down. I need my dose of God right now.
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