Thursday, August 28, 2008
Thursday, August 28, 2008
160808.
I went down to the reserviour like any other saturday training. Oh how I wish it was. That Coach didnt had that talk with Chrys, that Coach didnt leave them with a decision to make: Do you want to quit?, that everything will be alright and she'll forgive him for the rubbish that he said and she'll continue training and we'll do our 10km in a K2.
Chrys didnt even tell me before hand. All I got was shock and numbness for the rest of the day. Blame me that I rely too much on people. That Im selfish and only wanted what I thought would be the greatest possibility of winning a K2 race. Stunned. My mind was blank when Wei Jie who was the first to tell me the news relayed it to me. I tried to act nonchalant. I tried to be strong that it didnt affect me. But after hugging her, my screen bravado broke. I guess I was thankful for my sunglasses. I was desperately trying to hide away from the juniors. I had to be strong but I couldnt.
The last thing Chrys said? "if you want an explanation i'll email you" That wasnt what I wanted, and still not what I want.
Training will carry on as usual. But I guess at times I'll unconciously wonder where on earth is Chrystal when we're suppose to do pullups. Or my shoulders are sore from rowing and we give each other massages. and the after training, looking forward to drinking foamy Endurox. The sharing of lockers with our bright yellow floats and smelly running shoes.
I still remember the first training where we were made to run 2 rounds. Janis and Chrys told stupid silly riddles on the first km.
Its not just training that i'll miss with her. The trip to Jurong Swimming complex, the conflicts btwn her and JM everything. As a friend. CHRYSTAL WE BETTER MEET UP LIKE ONCE IN A WHILE I TELL YOU. OR ELSE I'LL HUNT YOU DOWN. :)
Disappointed? Very. But it's her choice and I respect that.
