It starts from my toes, and I wrinkle my nose

Saturday, February 28, 2009 Maybe the reason why I never got what I wanted was because He never let me have it. Not last time not now but hopefully not forever.

Monday, February 23, 2009 21 more days to internship.
23 more weeks to end of internship and back to rowing.

I know its really foolish of me to be missing trainings already when I still have 3 full weeks ahead of me to row myself silly. But one can't help it when i've become so extremely attached to the reserviour and the familiar walk down to the club across pebbled walkways.

Apart from mourning the loss of 20 weeks of 'hardly any kayaking', today's MICE paper was a grace from God and leniency from Cassim. I swear that Cassim is the most lenient teacher on this entire planet and true to his word. Why we bothered to study other notes apart from the revision lecture...I do not know. Thank God that I was 'kia su' enough to meet him for a consultation on my previous exam paper and he left Clair and I tips on what we should be studying. i.e. Just the revision notes. And boyyy did I vomit everything out once I entered the exam hall. For one, I was late for the paper. A first. Yea Late. I missed my reading time and precious 10 mins of frantic writing but thankfully managed to get into the swing of things immediately. After that it was just endless writing of 12 pages till the clock struck 11 30am. So much for leaving my house early...still got there late. Ugh.

Lunch and study today is something that our clique will probably be doing for the last time until next year same period. The usual laughter and rubbish spouted by the guys and items going missing till things are packed up and needing to be stored in bags. Occupying 3 tables even though theres only 8 of us. Joking with the tutors, Zinal especially, and seeing Geoffery Tai in a Hawaiian shirt. Haha. Ong dared Tai to wear that to SSM next term. Hahaha. I'd bet Goh's reaction would be priceless. *Both the latter and former are lecturers BTW*

Its scary realising how fast time is flying. 5 out of the 9 of us are leaving for either China or Orlando for attachment leaving the 4 of us stranded on this puny island as local interns. I'll be missing them for sure, seeing how we kinda managed to stick together(figuratively) for the past 2 years even though we separated in year 2. I thank God that this group of friends aren't a one off one semester classmates and I do hope that we continue to meet up and of course SKYPE when those ninnys are enjoying themselves wholly in US and China. Ang and Ong are gonna get me my branded goods from US and Seong is getting me my iPhone from China. hahahaha. I'll hold them to their promise.

Of course talking about the near future, what all of us are going to do after we graduate with diplomas(with MERIT none the less) is an intimidating yet exciting thought. We're not JC students who still have no idea as to what their future holds for them. We're successful TP students, probably as smart as JC kids, and maybe even more street smart since we have to survive in a dog eat dog campus...knowing or at least have an idea as to where we want to work at or study after we grad. For the guys, needless to say they'll be shaving off their 'mane' in time to come and I've already promised them that...'Don't worry, when you start working, you'll be working for me' hahaha. Ong refuses to believe that and says that he either works WITH me or I work FOR him. Well, I do pray that our beach bar will not just be a fantasy but a reality in time to come. Start scouting for potential islands dude!

I hold plans for myself that am afraid that if i speak it out loud, my Lord will take it away from me.As if he cant read my mind. hah. Plans of working in Singapore Sports Council or a resort and slowly working my way up as a successful General Manager of the company. I have goals of working and playing a part in the Youth Olympic Games and being the pioneer batch(once again) of workers in the Integrated Resorts. Yet I am unsure of what the Lord wants for me.

But as for right now what I do know is that...I need to study my accounts to reach my goals. -.-
A D+ will not suffice Sam...not at all.

Friday, February 20, 2009 I love my place at the window, staring into the empty street of Tavistock Ave, hearing the dogs bark and getting a perfectly unobstructed view of the stars in the night sky. The stars seem prettier here than at Minton Rise :)

Friday, February 20, 2009 Do you remember the time when you just felt like sitting on your friends or team mates and pounding them into the earth after they said something horribly upsetting and insulting to you? Yea thats what I'm thinking of doing right now. Only short of carrying out that action and using words to fired at them instead.

Smelly creatures boys are.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009 Heyho dum dee dumdumdum. 5 more days to exams! Thank God its just 2 papers and year 2 is over. Tuesday will be the most fantabulous day of BANG! and Mahjong. whoohoo. Three cheers for Clarissa's house. Then its row row row till I get sick of it by 16 march. I swear I will row until the very last day possible and try my very utmost best to come down on my free days. Sam See's so sad thinking about attachment =(

Sometimes i wonder if this is the right road that God wants me to take. Talking to Jarelyn a few days ago got me praying over again, asking the Lord if he has other plans for me after my diploma. In a matter of 12 months I'd have graduated and be looking for a job to jet start my career. or maybe, taking time off to just serve and learn more about Him. Or maybe ending up in school again furthering my studies or taking a whole different course.

Well...at the end of the day, I'll know in 12 months time. Hooray to that.

Monday, February 16, 2009 Its study week and im finally stressing over my coursework grades. I know that its a little too late to make amends but by the looks of things...i'd need to work doubly hard for accounting and MICE to even stand a chance of remaining in DHL and a year away to graduating with COM.

Argh, even the current coursework grades that have been released are not helping in claming me down. Sam sam sam, you gotta work your butt off if you want this. So I promise that I'll start doing 1 accounts paper everyday starting Wednesday till Sunday.

Saturday, February 14, 2009 I'm secretly worried about what will happen to me when I start my internship. That gone will be the days of walking across the bridge to the reserviour to row at my whim and fancy. I'm so so afraid of my strength and stamina dropping. I shudder at the thought of not being able to paddle for weeks, of not being able to participate in MR500 and NCC and of course missing my team. The team that has been my pride and joy since it was founded. 1 more month to interning and God knows what they have in store for me...

Thursday, February 05, 2009 I think I'm losing my voice. Good bye